I'm completely stumped on what to do. DH is supportive of me no matter what we decide (he thinks since I am giving birth whatever will make me more comfortable is what matters most). I really wanted to have a med-free and no intervention birth as long as it is safe for me to do so. We talked about using a midwife or a birthing center vs a hospital and he was on board with this.
I couldn't find either in our area so we started out at a "baby friendly" hospital. I learned that a lot of the normal procedures they do aren't necessary. A the prenatal class we took one of the doctors speaking admitted a procedure they did was not necessary but only a precautionary step they take. Someone asked about risks involved to the baby in doing this and the doctor quickly changed the subject. This and several other events that have happened really bother me and make me think I wouldn't be able to have a natural birth in a hospital with low interventions.
About a month ago we moved to a new state and I once again looked around for birthing centers or a midwife. I was so excited when I found a midwife. We met with her & decided to switch. I am now wondering if we should do something else. I did some research and she is only a CPM which from my research isn't even legal in IA (unless I read something wrong only CNMs are legal). She is very nice but not so good with returning emails or sending out information when she says she is going to.
I was talking with a friend and she asked me how I would feel if my baby died because the midwife didn't have the machines that doctors do to save my baby in case of an emergency. I am a low risk pregnancy and this is my first child. I just can't get what she said out of my mind & I am just freaking out. I don't know what to do. I no longer feel comfortable with my midwife and I am not comfortable with having my baby in a hospital with all the interventions.
I would appreciate any advice or personal stories that you think may help me. Thanks.