Feeling awful

Kaselleck

I know I'm new to the board, but I really need some emotional support. After two cancelled FETs because of poor lining, my now FET with a stimulated cycle is turnin bad. I triggered Wednesday and my lining was a 7.1 which I know isn't great, but the best I've had so far. Today I went in for an us and my lining shrunk to a 6.5!!!! I did a Lupron trigger, but added estrogen support IM shots and suppositories to help my lining. My dr is stumped as to why it's thinner and I'm devastated. The thought of canceling another cycle makes me want to scream! How is lining shrinking even possible?!! I am 29 no history of lining issues but my previous c sections have left some damage as I said in my previous post. I had the fluid in my uterus aspirated and it's slowly coming back but after a week, the fluid is minimal.

ttcmbbaby

I'm so sorry this is happening to you! I don't have a clue how that is possible unless they may have measured wrong? I've never heard of it shrinking especially mid cycle. I also wanted to say that even if you are new to this you are not new to IF and IF is one crazy biotch so feel free to "unload" when you are needing any assistance. 

Kaselleck

Thanks. I'm waiting to hear from my nurse and doctor. They sent all my info to the head IVF so she can talk to the dr, too. Apparently, I'm a science experiment. I don't know how much more they can do. I'm already a walking pin cushion.

 

I am really starting to want to punch the doctor who did my c sections in the face- but maybe I'm looking for someone to blame. It's so frustrating because the reason I can't get PG now is a totally different reason than why I couldn't get PG the first time. I feel like no one understands and no one can fix it. Plus, my husband (who has been great) is feeling the same way. I feel so horrible that I can't give him another baby- something we both want for our family so much. But I'm starting to think that this really could be the end of the road for us. I never, ever thought I'd get to the point where I'd have to admit that maybe it's impossible, but I think that might be the next turn.

I've thought about getting second opinions, and I probably will just so I have peace of mind that I've done everything I can, but I know that there is no magic drug or surgery that I haven't already tried.

 

Ugghhh- you said it. IF is a biotch and I hate her.

ttcmbbaby

I fully understand where you are coming from!!! This is our last cycle before we give up for a few years (so we can save for iui or ivf)... I have a 7 year old daughter that I got pregnant while on bc at 19 then delivered right after I turned 20... dh has been with me since I was 3 months pregnant and he has been there for EVERYTHING (the birth - he cut the cord, he stayed with me when I was in hospital, he stayed with us when she was hospitalized for a week at 1 etc) she has NO IDEA she isn't his for real because that's how freaking awesome and amazing my dh is...!!! We have been ttc for 4 years now and still no baby just one mc for our struggles... our doctor said he refuses any future treatments unless we are doing iui or ivf... Since we cannot afford that we have to stop... I feel broken and horrible that I can get pregnant from a bf so young and now that I am 27, married, home owner, have a professional career, and have my master's degree and cannot give my husband a biological child it just makes me so sad... I know if he were to get together with anyone else he wouldn't have any problems (they have tested both of us repeatedly he is great and I just suck...) the only issue they know and have said for sure if pcos but I get eggs and ovulate with the medicines so I don't know what else it could be... but yes it's frustrating and horrible!!!