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Well, ladies, I had my 7 week ultrasound today and it showed an empty sac. Not the result I was hoping for. I kept telling myself that spotting and bleeding was normal, but I guess it wasn't, in my case.

 Before I leave, some special shout-outs to some very special ladies....

McIrish, I am wishing you peace and happiness and am so thankful for all of your kind words and good advice.

10-4 (my favorite Austin buddy), I hope that your upcoming IVF cycle is your one-hit wonder and that you, your husband, and stepdaughter soon have a new addition to welcome.

llama, I hope that you get the very best birthday present for 41.

happywife, Becky, and heather, I hope that your donor egg cycles are wildly successful and that your waits are short.

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  • BeckyP005BeckyP005 member

    Oh Owl...I am truly sorry. Your officially done? This makes me so sad that some of you have to leave. This is making me cry. Not fair...I hate this.

    I wish you nothing but the best for you and YH. Take care of yourselves. Hijoi said it best. Will miss you :(

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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  • owlprofowlprof member

    Hijoi, thanks so much for your kind words (and for always keeping an eye on us over here).

    Becky, I'm not sure if we're done...I think I'm going to take some time and think about where to go from here.  Don't worry, I'll still be following you to see how you're doing and to hopefully celebrate good news with you!

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  • QzeesQzees
    OMG Owl I am so sorry to hear this. 
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  • robbensmrobbensm member
    Oh Owl I'm so so so sorry.  Really thought this was it for you.  Just like with McIrish, you have been a great source of info & support and I appreciate it so much.  I hope you can find peace as you move onto the next chapter.
    Me 39 & suspected PCOS, DH 42. Went off BCP when we got married in 11/11, seriously TTC since 3/12.  Six cycles of clomid = BFNs.  Suspected endometriosis & HSG showed both tubes blocked.  Sept 2013 IVF 5D transfer of two perfect embryos = BFN.  Started acupuncture and taking time off to drop some pounds & get healthier before FET in April 2014.
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  • tinkerbektinkerbek
    awww i;m so sorry to read this. I didnt get to know you but i feel for you. I send you hugs!
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  • QOTRQOTR member
    I'm so sorry Owl. :(
    Me-41, Hubby-40.
    1st BFP-8/17/12!  Missed Miscarriage discovered @ 8 week US.  D&C.
    2nd BFP-2/13/13!  Blighted Ovum discovered @ 8 week US. Natural miscarriage.
    3rd BFP-5/22/13!  By early June, progesterone plummeting.  Another loss.
    August 2013 - started Donor Egg process, but surprise BFP with my own eggs.
    Dear Son born 5/28/14
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  • 10-4LilBuddy10-4LilBuddy member

    Oh no.  My heart sank when I saw your post and I started crying when I opened it.  I am so incredibly sorry.  I was praying so hard that this was it for you. 

    Thank you for your kind words.  I shared your post with my husband who has also been following you (whether he likes it or not - I'm tell him about the bumpies anyway) and he also thanks you and expresses his sympathy as well.  My real name is the same as a one hit wonder song, so maybe that's a sign?  I'm looking for anything here since the number of stork sightings at my house is ridiculous.

    Please use your time off to recoup and take care of yourself and your husband.  ((Hugs))

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  • happywifemomofonehappywifemomofone member
    Owl-I am so sorry that your PG didn't work out as you hoped.  I had a chemical on my second IVF and found it devastating to be so close, but yet so far from the final outcome that you are hoping for.  I took a break of over a year of cycling, and even though I'm getting older-I don't regret that time away.  Hope to see you back on here soon.  It's sad to see old timers have these things happen, feel like we're a sorority of sorts.  Big (((hugs))) and please check in when you decide what your next steps will be.
    TTC since 10/09 Me-43 DH-44 RE and testing 10/10-11/10, Recommending IVF 1/11 New RE AMA and DOR-DH low motility IVF #1.1 cancelled 3/11 due to poor response IVF #1.2 May 2011, one perfect 8-cell embryo, 3dt-BFN, IVF #2.1 Converted to IUI d/t poor response. New RE 9/2011. IVF 2.2 completed using HGH,EPP,DHEA, Q-10 and accupuncture. Transferred one 8-cell, grade one embryo on 10/19. BFP 10/31/11 Chemical pregancy on 11/2/11. Started stims for IVF #3, our final try, on 12-2-11. ET on 12/18. Transferred 3 Grade A embryos-BFFN Planning DE IVF, late March/early April- Donors ER expected to be 4/2-4/4. PAIF/SAIF welcome
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  • HeathernStevenHeathernSteven member

    I am so sorry!! I have found you to be wonderful on this site, I hope you find the peace and resolve that you need for your life. I hope there is a lo in your future.

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    Me: 41 DH: 46. We are TTC our 1st, started July '11,
    3 cycles clomid with Ob,
    1 cycle Tamoxifen with Ob,
    Diagnosed PCOS 11/5/12
    clomid, trigger & timed bd 12/12 BFN
    1st clomid IUI 1/4/13 BFN.
    2nd clomid IUI 2/13 cancelled didn't respond to clomid.
    3/15/13 scheduled laparoscopy & on bcp.

    May 10 IUI from injectibles - BFN 

    May 22 done with interventions it will either happen or it won't. 

    February 2014 No longer actively trying, but not preventing. 

    SURPISE BFP 4/2/2015!!!!!!!!!!

    Miscarriage 4/23/15

     

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  • amandaleigh1amandaleigh1 member
    Owl, I am so sad for you. I am very sorry. There are really no words for me to express how unfair this is for you and everyone else that is struggling to build their families.

    IVF #1 ET 1 d3 embryo 10/30/11 BFP
    3 Embryos frozen (1 d5, 2 d6)

    DS born 07/29/12

    FET #1 ET 1 d5 embryo 02/10/15 BFN

    FET #2 1 d6 embryo didn't survive thaw, transferred last d6. CP :(

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  • annaliselannalisel member

    I'm sorry owlprof. IF is not at all fair.

    Take care of yourself.

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  • LlamamamaLlamamama member

    Oh Owl, I am so very sorry.. this was supposed to be your turn.  It's just not fair.  Broken Heart

    I am honored to be mentioned in your post.  I hope you will stick around and continue to share your journey with us.  Big hugs to you.

    Me: 40 Dh: 41, TTC since August 2009, began Acupuncture and Herbs Sept 2011, began Temping and Charting Nov 2011. image
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  • MommyRie123MommyRie123
    I'm so very sorry. 
    "Don't look back, you can never look back." - Don Henley
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  • ELF4321ELF4321 member
    Oh no, I'm so sorry. Hugs and best wishes.


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  • MrsNukemMrsNukem member

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    Owl, I'm so very sorry to read this.  So much sadness for the old timers lately, it breaks my heart.  I hope your time off will help you decide the path forward.  Many thoughts and prayers.

    Me:40 AMA, DH:36 0% morph, TTC#1;
    BFP#1 4/2011, MMC 6/2011 11wks Trisomy 13;
    BFP#2 11/2011, CP
    FSH: 17.9, AMH: 2.2
    IVF#1 w/ICSI: ER 4/3: 5R,4M,4F
    ET 4/6 All 4 (1-8A+, 2-8A-, 1-3A) BFP#3
    Two weeks of beta hell = Blighted Ovum
    IVF#2 Aug/Sept: ER 8/27: 4R,3M,3F
    ET 8/30 (1-8A+, 1-6A+)
    Beta#1 9/10: 350; Beta#2 9/12: 796; Beta#3 9/20: 9155
    Expecting Boy/Girl Twins! My babies were born 4/23/13 at 36w1d!

     
     

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  • mtlaurelmtlaurel
    i am so sorry owlprof. it s devastatingly unfair. hugs.    phone punctuation
    TTC #1 since June 2010
    Me: 36, DH: 42
    Dx: DOR and MFI

    DH: low count + very low motility; hormones all normal; Sperm DNA Frag. test = poor to fair; male karyotyping normal
    Me: FSH 13.4 + AMH 0.26 + hypothyroidism; Scratch the hypothyrodism (?); Blood clotting and immune panel all negative; endometrial biopsy normal

    IVF #1 (MDLF - Jul/Aug 2011): BFN (9R, 5M, 3F with ICSI, 3dt of 1 10-cell grade 2, no frosties)
    IVF #2 (EP-antagonist - Sep/Oct 2011): BFN (6R, 4M, 3F w/ ICSI, 3dt of 1 6-cell, 1 7-cell, grade 4s, no frosties)
    DE IVF #1 (shared cycle - June 2012): c/p (6R, 6F w/ICSI, 3dt 1 8-cell grade A- and 1 7-cell grade A-; no frosties)
    DE IVF #2 (shared cycle with new donor - Nov/Dec/ 2012): - BFP!!!!! 12/14/12. U/S on 12/27 shows twins!!!!!

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  • Jacque SillsJacque Sills member
    I am so sorry for your loss, Owl.  I hope that you and your DH will find peace, as you move forward and maybe, can try again.  You will be missed. ((hugs)) 
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  • PPL2011PPL2011 member
    I'm sorry for your loss. I know it's heartbreaking. I hope you find peace and are able to move on soon. 

     

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  • calibride2005calibride2005 member
    Wow this has been a crappy beginning of a new year. Im sorry Owl : I was hoping for the best for you.
    Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Daisypath Anniversary tickers image Me - 41 DH - 28 **** Proud mom to Christopher, dob 7/15/92 **** Nathaniel dob 1/18/05 -1/18/05 (8 mos) in heaven **** bfp 8/26/10 m/c 10/14/10 at 7 wks. **** D&C 10/15/10 **** Cycles 1-4 BFN's **** Cycle #5 - 100 mg Clomid **** IUI #1 - 04/23/11 and 4/24/11 - 5/8/11 IUI #1 = BFFN BFP 10/14/11 - EDD 6/22/12** Stick little one Stick! Athena Jane 5/31/12 - 8/28/12
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  • irishgirl0525irishgirl0525 member
    Owlprof, I'm so very sorry to read this. I've been thinking of you as you were waiting for this ultrasound.  It's all very exhausting and sad to go through this period of time waiting and worrying at the same time. If you need to talk please don't hesitate to reach out, I'm still going through a bunch of emotions about my m/c and I would be happy to listen or offer any support you need.
    TTC since 3/2010. Me 41, DH-49. After 3 years, 6 IUIs and several IVFs we have finally have our beautiful baby girl, born on 11/7/13.



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  • MAtoNCMAtoNC member
    Oh, no. Nothing to say but that I am so sorry, and I know what it feels like to look at the u/s screen and see nothing where a growing bean should be. I hope that peace comes to you on whatever road you choose.
    Married 4/12/08 DS born 11/17/2009 via c-section at 39 weeks. 11/12/2011 BFP #2!! m/c 7w5d. 2/28/2012 BFP #3 Beta #1-12dpo = 18; Beta #2-16dpo = 185; Beta #3-18dpo = 505. EDD 11/10/2012. Ectopic discovered at 5w4d. D&C followed by methotrexate.
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  • emikatemikat member
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    Owl, I'm so sorry to hear this and my heart breaks for you. I was truly hoping this was it for you. May your find peace come your way in this journey.
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    TTC 10/11. IUI 2/12. BFP 3/8/12. 4/26/12 missed mc. RE consult 5/17/12. IVF #1 ER 7/13/12 53R, 41M ICSIed, 32F, 8 5d, 6 6d blasts - all PGD/frozen. PGD results 1 normal M and 1 normal F, 1 maybe M. FET 9/6, transferred 1 F embie. Beta 9/15 BFN. FET#2 planned for 11/2012 put off until 2013. Surprise BFP 11/21/12!! My son was born on 7/24/13!

    FET 4/28/2015 - Transferred 1 M embie. 5/6/15 BFP!

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  • HeatherIconHeatherIcon member
    Ugh. This has been a disappointing week in ttc land.
    I am hopeful we all will have positive and joyous experiences in the next few months. Thank you and sending care, support and good vibes!
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  • DawnHopeDawnHope member
    I am so incredibly sorry for your loss.  My thoughts and prayers are with you....
    Me-42 DH-43 TTC #1 since 3/11
    HSG 7/11 showed possible blockage
    8/11 BFP, then early m/c  (Natural)
    9/11 blood tests reveal Factor V Leiden (heterozygous)
    11/11 Hysteroscopy revealed uterine septum, which was repaired
    12/11 1st round of Clomid (100mg)=BFN
    1/12 2nd round of Clomid (100mg)=BFN 
    2/12 Repeat HSG=All clear 
    2/12 IUI with injectables #1=BFN 
    3/12 natural cycle=BFN 
    4/12 IUI with injectables #2=C/P 
    7/12 IVF #1=30ER, 9F, 3T, 1 Frostie 7/29=BFP! 
    8/27/12 No Heartbeat. Waiting to M/C 
    9/13/12 D+C
    12/12 Operative Hysteroscopy 
    1/31/12  IVF#2 ...BFP 2/6 m/c 2/12 methotrexate due to presumed ectopic
    July '13 IVF #3: 13R, 10M, 8F=BFP
    1st Beta=549  2nd Beta 594 3rd Beta 422. M/C #5
    IVF#4 in November=BFP…TWINS!!!!!

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  • Mrs.McIrishMrs.McIrish member
    I am so sorry. I hope you are taking good care of yourself.

    TTC #1 since 8/1/10; Me:41 and BRCA1+, DH:46
    DOR (FSH 24.3)/ terrible egg quality ; homozygous MTHFR c677t
    5 IUI's: 2/11 to 6/11 and 1/12= BFN
    OE IVF#1-4 8/11-6/12= all BFN
    DE IVF#1 11/12 bad embryos= BFN
    DE IVF #2 2/13 BFP/Beta hell: m/c 5w6d
    CFNBC 7 months, not doing well; decided on guarantee program at RBA w/frozen DE
    DE IVF #3 1/14  ET 4BB; BFP;M/C 5w1d, incomplete m/c; MVA extraction in ER 7w1d

    DE FET#1 ET 3/1714; BFP, beta 1 3/27= 197, beta 2 3/31= 1586, beta 3 4/7= 13879!!
    First u/s= Twins with HBs at 6w2d! We are Team Pink x 2!!

    K & K born 11/21/14 at 38wks 4 days

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  • jb2rnjb2rn member
    Ticker/photo I had been looking for an update on you. I am so sorry to hear this. I will be thinking of you. Sending you strength.
    b/w=FSH 15.6, AMH 0.4 surprise natural BFP on 3/12/11
    DS born via unplanned C-section at 40w6d

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  • Mayzie15Mayzie15 member
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    I'm so sorry Owl for your loss. IF can be so cruel and I don't think I will ever understand why these things happen. Please know your in my thoughts.

    Me 38 MH 41 - TTC since June 2010 - dx with Severe MFI. Straight to IVF with ICSI. IVF #1 - ER 06/13/12 - 9 Eggs Retrieved - 4 ICSI'd - only 2 fert. 06/15/12 - 2DT - 3 cell & 6 cell with fragmentation. Beta 06/29/12 - IVF #1 = BFN. 07/20/12 - WTF Appt -Told by our RE to quit IVF. Second Opinion from RE is good. IVF#2 - November 2012. Estradiol Pills Started 11/6. Stims start 11/16. ER 11/26 - 7 eggs retrieved - all mature. 4 fertilized with ICSI. ET 11/29 Transferred 3 embryos. Beta is 12/10. 1st Beta 81 2nd Beta 160 and 3rd beta 360!!! First U/S 12/21/12 - We saw one beautiful gest. sac. 2nd U/S is 01/04/2013 - H/B 183 02/05/13 - NT Scan - everything looks good and IT'S A BOY!  Aiden was born 08/20/2013.

    IVF #2 is in progress.  ER was 05/12/14 - 11 eggs retrieved, 8 fertilized with ICSI.  ET was 05/15/14 - we transferred 3 embryos as we did on the cycle my son was conceived.  We were able to freeze 3 embryos. Beta is scheduled for 05/26/14.  1st beta - 111.  2nd beta - 159 didn't double :( 3rd beta Friday 5/30) - not a lot of hope left. Beta # 3 is 247 - probably ectopic.  Beta # 4 is 813 - possibly vanishing multiple sydrome?  06/05/14 - 5w4days - first U/S - we see a gestational sac and yolk - still have hope!  06/17/14 - 7w1day - U/S and saw and heard the heartbeat - Finally!  06/27/14 - 8w4days - Baby and heartbeat look and sound great :)  EDD 02/01/14 and It's a boy!


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