I have incredibly severe PPD. My OBGYN gave me Zoloft at my check-up after baby "just in case" because at the time I was managing just fine. As my LO has gotten older, I've been able to enjoy her more but the reality of being a young mother (with the father coming in and out as he chooses), doing it primarily alone, along with trying to go back to school and missing my life is really starting to sink in and drag me down. I really don't want to take the meds because I breastfeed and as hard as I work to be a good mom, I don't want ANY of that getting to my baby because then what did I try so hard for in the first place? I've always loved children, always wanted a family, but this pregnancy was unplanned and has unraveled the larger majority of my life. I don't know what to do. I hardly have time to get school-work done, much less go to therapy. My parents are older (60+), my mother is about to have surgery on both her shoulders and my LO's fathers side of the family totally disregards my wishes has the mother so I do not let them babysit. My help is severely limited but I'm at the point of breaking.