The little things that set us off....

meli1025

For the most part I've been holding it together.  This morning it hit me that when I talked to my Dad yesterday he told me that he was leaving for his vacation next week.  My Dad and stepmom normally take a vacation to St. Barth's every year in February during Valentine's week.  I remembered that he moved it up because his 4th grandchild was due to arrive (my Ava).  It hit me that he moved his vacation up to be here for her arrival and now that wasn't even necessary.  It just made me so sad I started crying as I was trying to get ready for work today.  The closer I get to her EDD the more sad and angry I am becoming, just when I think I'm making progress. 

fluttergirlmoonchild79

It really can be the oddest things that set us off.  I bawled my eyes out in the car one day because there was a State Farm commercial and the guy sings "I like my home and my auto like I like my burrito" (all rolled into one).  Corbin loved to be swaddled (as long as his arms weren't confined) and when I'd go to wrap him up I'd ask if he wanted to be a burrito.  Yep, a State Farm commercial.  On the radio.  10 minutes bawling in the CVS parking lot.  {{HUGS}} sweetie.  You're coming up on a major date and it is very difficult.  Be gentle on yourself.  You are making progress even if you can't see it. 

meli1025

Thanks fluttergirl...big ((hugs)) to you too. 

Pumpkins+Junebug

((hugs)) It's so hard to have a reminder smack you out of the blue. I tear up every time I buckle my kids in the car, because we were stressing out about fitting 3 carseats in there. Or today, when a package of formula samples came in the mail.

Her EDD will be tough to get through. Hopefully having this group as a sounding board helps a little.  

Bayberry12

I know you had so many plans and its really hard when the reminders come up.  We had three weddings over the summer and had made arrangements to either bring Stella with us or have my MIL baby sit.  Well, she didn't make it, and we still went to the weddings.  They were events that we had thought she would be here for, and it was really hard when each date passed.  It was supposed to be so different.

I'm sure her EDD will be really hard, I hope you have some support at home, and you know we are always here for you. 

jess123456

Hugs to you Meli. Milestones are so hard. As you know we are always here for you.

OSUWifey09

Random things set me off, too. Some of the obvious things still set me off - like stumbling upon a box of Devon's clothes that I had packed away and forgot where I put it - but some not-so-obvious things set me. Those stupid FB ads about pregnancy and babies? I still get those, and it makes me mad and sad. Sometimes, I sit in my car and cry because the only reason why I got my new car is because it had more space for two car seats. Things were supposed to be so different...I know a lot of us probably feel that way.

I know it'll be tough as you approach your EDD, but we're here as a sounding board and a shoulder to lean/cry on. Lots of hugs to you.

tuscanbride2007

((HUGE HUGS)) Keeping you in my thoughts as you approach your EDD. Please know that we are here for you when you need us.

meli1025

Thank you all so much for your support.  It really helps to know that I'm not alone, I am so grateful that we have each other to help us through.  No one IRL really understands any of this.