one month

arm08

So today marks the one month milestone since we held our lil angel for the first and last time =(  I did ok today I think I only cried once at work but I felt like I was in a zone and I didnt want to work.I started to cry at luch but I got myself together before anyone really noticed I guess I just needed to let it out. 

I started back to work this week and it was ok but I had a hard time getting back into the swing of things. I got lucky and only had to tell 2 people that we had lost the baby so at least people knew and didn't ask to much.I see people looking at my belly I am a biger girl but,,,,, I just want to say UMMM no I am not anymore but thanks for looking  or I have had people tell me ohh you look great ohh really thanks I dont feel great. So like they say just taking one day at a time and DH and i are hanging in there. I know it takes time but I do want the emply feeling I have to go away and I know only you other loss moms would understand that feeling.

 

jess123456

Sending you lots of hugs. Going back to work is so tough and it's a sad reminder to see that life goes on for everyone else when it feels like your whole world has stopped.

Please know that you aren't alone in feeling this way. We are always here to listen and will be there for you when it feels like the whole world either doesn't get it or has moved on. Be gentle with yourself.