back to work today

arm08

So it will be 1 month this sat since we lost Isabella. So I have been off for 4 weeks so I decided that today would be my first day back to work. It was a hard morning getting myself up and actually getting back to whatever my new normal is.I did ok but its hard when you run into someone that didn't know what happened but I did ok and the day went on. So here's to making it through the rest of the week : as always thanks for all the advice and support ladies.

jmlind

Much luck! I'm in about the same spot as you are - good luck making it through the day, and as the ladies here told me last week, if you need to, just take the time for yourself to sit aside and cry. I know I did at least 2x today I hope this week is very successful!

starburst0928

Hugs

It gets easier to be back at work. What I found to help was getting up out of my cube and walking around, going up and down the stairs... Just getting away.

jbranden12

Congrats! The first few weeks back to work, I sat in the car and cried almost every morning before going in. I also cried several times a week in the bathroom. Sometimes the pain would just hit me and I had to just find a place alone and let it out or I would be on the verge of tears for hours.

It's hard thinking about what we should be doing instead. I had a difficult time handling small annoyances because if something/someone was irritating, my mind immediately jumped to "I shouldn't even be dealing with this, I should be at home taking care of my baby." Thankfully my boss and coworkers were usually patient with me. I hope yours are as well!

bunnybun4

the first wed-fri of work was really hard for me.  I basically did not leave my office the entire 3 days...if I had to go to the bathroom i had a mild anxiety attack before I left my office that someone would say soemthing to me.  My secretary had to get my coffee every monring and I even holed up for lunch and remember thinking, "I don't know if I can ever go into the lunchroom again"

it got a lot better the second week and now a month and a half out it is very different.  I had a girl ask me yesterday (who has not obviously seen me in a long time) what month the baby was coming (even though I don't have a bump!!!) and though my face got really hot I survived and I didn't even cry. 

things get better everyday...the things you are afraid of today will start to dissipate and you will get back into your normal routine. 

hugs!!!

mandi195

I wish I had taken some time. I found out about our loss at Dr's appointment I took a long lunch hour for, and had to come right back to work. I've been here mon-fri since finding out over a week ago. My first day out will be Friday for my D&C (since my body still hasn't realized what's going on, even though everything else stopped at least 3 weeks ago).

My advice is to stay strong, and if you can, find a way to detach the emotions while you're at work. It's near impossible, but I've had to find a way. I've had 3 times now where a co-worker has asked me "feeling ok? no morning sickness?" or "how was the doctor? what was baby's heart rate?" and such. Every time I wanted to disappear, but calmly said "oh, I thought you'd heard. We lost the baby." It's difficult, and I've found myself fighting tears a few times when some have asked further about the whole experience. (The worst is a co-worker who asks me EVERY morning how I'm feeling/if I need anything/etc).

hugs, hang in there!