New here.... This is a long intro

arm08

Hello mommies

I am new to this. I have been reading your post and they have really helped me that is why I am here looking for support from others that have been through the same thing.

Here is our story DH and I have been married 4 years and we have been trying to have a baby since we got married but in march of this year we started to see the fertility dr we did rounds of meds and some shots, in July we did IUI and it worked the first try So I waited a long time before I was sure of it pretty much when the fertility dr said at 10 weeks we could go see the reg ob that is when it really started to sink in. Well when we went for our 20 week scan that is when our joys turned to worries. I was told that I had low fluid and that the baby was 2 weeks behind in groth so we did all kinds of testing and found out our lil angel was going to have Downs Sydrome you have your moment with that where you think of all the what ifs but DH and I were fine with that we held out hope that our child would not be that much different from others and we were still so happy to be parents that we would still have a happy healthy baby. Well at 22 weeks my fluid had gotten lower and the baby still had not grown and they were worried about my placenta not giving the baby what she needed. So I was sent to the hospital to meet with the NICU dr and she told us that we would be back in 2 weeks to deliver at 25 weeks. So we went home thinking of all the bad things that could happen but trying to hold out hope that things would be ok. Well I went in for my 2 week dopplers on monday dec 10 and that is when my life changed forever.... The words I'm so sorry there is no heart beat were spoken... so I was admitted to the labor and delivery and they started my labor and my sweet lil angel Isabella Rose was born on Dec 11 2012 at 24 weeks. We got to spend all the time we wanted with her and I will forever remember those moments. I am having trouble with the fact at the time I didn't want any pictures and now I just wish I had that one pic of DH and I holding her for the last time but I will always have my specail memories. we had our final good bye at a Mass that following sat I have not decided if I want to bury her ashes or keep them for now. I like having them here its like a part of her is still around. Sorry this is a long post but I thought it was rime I shared my story and joined the support that you all give each other. Thanks .   

lrichmond86

I am so sorry for the loss of your beautiful daughter. I hate to welcome a new mommy to this board, but I hope that you find the love and support that you need to begin your healing from the wonderful ladies here.

starburst0928

So sorry for your loss. We all understand what you are going through, so feel free to post anything! 

You did what you thought was right in the moment, so don't beat yourself up for not having any pictures. You'll never forget your baby girl!

We didn't cremate DS, and he is buried about 2 miles away from where we live. Although I know that is just where his body is, I love to go "visit" him in his final place. Do what you think is right. If you like having her still at home with you, do it! 

tuscanbride2007

I am so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby girl Isabella Rose. We all have different stories, but we all know what it is like to lose our precious child(ren). Please come here whenever you need to. The women here are truly amazing!

((hugs)) 

OSUWifey09

I'm so sorry for the loss of your Isabella Rose [love the name]. This board has been such a great source of comfort since I lost my son in August, and I hope you can find the same comfort here as well.

Like starburst said, do what's best for you. I had my son cremated and have his ashes in a special place in the room that was going to be his. I'm not sure I'll ever spread them because I feel better having a piece of him with me. Be gentle with yourself, and follow your heart. *hugs* 

meli1025

I am so terribly sorry for the loss of your baby girl.  I wish I didn't have to welcome you here, but this is a great place for support.  Huge ((hugs)) to you.  We are all here for you.  

mcarter127

I am so very sorry for the loss of your daughter, Isabella. This board has been such an amazing source of support since we lost our son in September.
I am so sorry you didn't get pictures. Is it possible the hospital took some but didn't give them to you at the time. It's just a thought, although know that you will never forget her face!
Be gentle with yourself, this journey is very difficult. Again, Im so sorry you have to be here!

Carolee

I'm so sorry for the loss of your little Isabella Rose - what a beautiful name.I'm sad to welcome you to the board, but I hope you'll find posting here to be a source of comfort.

jbranden12

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I am so sorry for the loss of your Isabella Rose. I am glad you got to spend time with her and say goodbye. I have my daughter's ashes in a small box from Things Remembered that we had engraved with her name and birth date. I like to have her at home with us. I am so sorry to welcome you to our group but hope you can find some comfort here.

jlcrhw

****Ticker warning***********

I am so very sorry for the loss of your Isabella. I started crying when I read your story. I don't think our stories could be anymore alike. At our 20 scan we found our daughter, Isabella Rose also, was 4 weeks behind in growth. We did all the tests and could not find a reason. We were told to prepare for the worst. Isabella hung on until 26weeks. I also did not get a picture and wish I had. I do have her hand and foot prints though. The ladies here have helped me so much. I hope you find the comfort here that I have. You and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. (((Big Hugs)))

Williamandshawnna

I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Isabella Rose.  I am sad to welcome you to the board, but know you will find a great group of supportive women here. Please be gentle with yourself.