PPD or am I just a b*tch?

wistfulmama

Lately I've been so grumpy and get defensive about everything.  My H and I used to get along great. I mean, we had the occasional disagreement, but nothing like this.  I just get so mad at him sometimes for no good reason.  Not just at him though.  At anything.  I'll be totally fine one minute, then something sets me off and I am so angry that I hardly know what to do. Example:  The other night we were in bed and something had upset me and I couldn't sleep. At all. And, of course, DH was laying on his side of the bed sleeping as soundly as ever. It made me so mad. Before I knew what I was doing, I had grabbed my pillow and flung it into the wall as hard as I could.  H woke up at the loud thud on the wall and was quite shaken by this. It sorta freaked me out too. I'd never really done anything like that before. He asked why i had done it. I didn't even know I was going to. It just happened. I've never really been like that before. But now when i get upset,I find myself wanting to throw things or punch things all the time. I feel like a crazy person. I'm like 'WTH is wrong with me?!'

byrne15

It doesn't hurt to go and talk with someone.

A lot of stuff happens when you are overtired, overwhelmed, etc.

ds#2 is still getting up several (up to 10) times per nights.  I feel like I don't even remember what happens at night....just all of the sudden, it is the next day. 

Mzbr

I will say with my PPD I was got angry very easily and could not let go of the angry feelings. Not saying thats what is going on with you for sure. However if its anything out of the ordinary for you its certainly a good idea to talk with some one.

DemoDoll

I'm pretty similar to you. DH and I never fought, and when I say never...we haven't fought since we were engaged, years ago. We are such an easy going couple, until DD came along. There are things he does that bother me. I even get mad if he does something with DD that I normally do too. One morning I was getting ready for work and DD woke up. I was dealing with her and trying to get ready. I was so mad that DH didn't get up to help (which he never does). Finally I was getting DD and I into the car and there was sh!t in the way in the garage and I just started throwing all of it across the garage, bashing it against the wall. I looked up and DH was watching me. I was so mortified. I scared him and myself. I'm sure it's just hormones and no sleep. But none the less, I'm in the same boat.

nicnac817

Sounds like new mom syndrome... drink 2 glasses of wine and check back in the morning.

AprilAngie

A lot of what is written here is me too.

I think it's just the lack of sleep. I h e a type a personality an struggle when my kids aren't getting cared for the way I want them to.
I am working on this, did many many hears of therapy.

Saltylove:

I have times of intense frustration and sometimes anger, and have PPD.

Not so much throwing things, but I freak out at DH over stupid sh!t all. the.time. It's terrible. I feel like a crazy b!tch often.

It is usually worst when DD is having a meltdown and nothing soothes her. I get incredibly frustrated sometimes, but since I don't take it out on DD, DH gets the brunt of it. Mostly I just pick at whatever he is doing to try and calm her down. Because clearly I have all the answers, even though she won't calm down for me either... It's so stupid.

We talked a lot about parenting before we had DD, but most of it was toddler age and up, not so much the baby stage. Some days it just feels like we really aren't in sync, and other days we are.