My cousin/best friend gave birth to a beautiful little boy last night. Being that we were pregnant and due with our son in March I was a nervous about visiting the hospital because.. well our loss was in September at 17 weeks but some days it still feels so fresh. I was afraid holding her son would make my heart break again.
Surprisingly it was okay and I actually felt at peace. I think it is largely in part to the positive route our adoption path is currently on. As I held him and looked down at his little sleepy face I knew for the first time in a long time that someday I will be holding a son or daughter of our own and I will get this experience even if it's in the 'non-traditional' way as my MIL has come to refer to it. ::eye roll::
Re: I was actually at peace
TTC since June 2009
01/10- Femara
03/10- Femara
07/2010- Clomid with injectables and IUI #1
08/2010- IUI #2
06/2011- IVF #1 BFP!
09/2011- Miscarriage at 10 1/2 weeks
11/2011- FET
01/2012- Start Home Study process
03/2012- Home Study approved and now waiting on our child to find us!
07/2012- matched with a BM who is due in October!
11/10/12- our son is born!
11/13/12- court grants us custody!
12/28/12- finalization! Always ours in our hearts, but.now also ours forever
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