Hello, I'm Michelle. I am 17w3d. We went for our "sex reveal" ultrasound yesterday and got the news that our baby has hydrops, and cystic hygroma, and will die in utero. We are choosing to terminate this week. I became pregnant naturally for this pregnancy, but last May got pregnant via IVF. That pregnancy ended in miscarriage after five weeks. Needless to say, this pregnancy was a big surprise. I'm having the weirdest emotions. One minute I literally feel fine, which is so weird, then I break down spontaneously. I don't have to be thinking about anything at all, I just start to randomly cry. My husband and I just both feel like these past two years of trying and failing has kicked our asses. We've also experienced two deaths in the family, and my MIL is suffering from terminal cancer. It all just feels like too much, but at the same time we feel so lucky to have each other. We're very happily married and have a wonderful life besides all this "crap". It's all just so surreal. Just wanted to surround myself with people that have some idea of what we're going through.