I feel like I'm going backwards.

ILoveRedVino

My loss was in August.  Over the course of the fall, I feel like things got better.  The world started to  get bright and happy again.  I don't know if it is Christmas or the upcoming due date, or all the holiday pregnancy announcements, or what... but I think I'm going backwards.  It is getting harder again, to the point that I debated going home from work just to cry.

Has anyone else been through this?

OSUWifey09

I am in the EXACT same boat. I was doing good, October and most of November went by without a hitch, then I got to Thanksgiving. I've felt lost ever since. I think it's a combination of everything you've mentioned - Christmas, holiday baby announcements, your due date etc. For me, it's definitely the holiday and the baby announcements. I've shut myself off from the world and haven't made any plans to see any friends during the holiday break because I just don't want to deal with it. I want to drown my sorrows in chocolate and block out the world.

I get how you feel - and I'm so sorry you feel like you're going backwards. I wish I had advice, but I, too, just want to go home and cry. *hugs*

thecuddleeffect

I'm sorry ILRV, I'm sure its a combination of all of those things you mentioned. I know it has been a shorter time since my loss but I feel as if I am going backwards too. Maybe its the holidays, maybe its because I realized that this is all real, not just some horrible nightmare.

Big ((hugs))

lolee465

I know exactly how you feel. My EDD was the begining of the week..between that, the holidays, and all the pg announcements I feel like I can't breathe this week. I've actually left work twice this week and once last week because I've had total breakdowns.:( I felt like I was doing so much better, but now I feel like I'm back in the end of August. I've heard people say grief comes in waves..and this has been a really bad wave. ((hugs)) to all of us.

jrebele

I think we all have those moments where we feel like we are taking steps back in the grieving process.  For me, it started a bit after thanksgiving and it hasn't gotten too much better.  I keep telling myself that this is a road that I need to travel and there will be detours along the way and I just need to ask for help during those times.

fluttergirlmoonchild79

This is all completely normal.  Been there.  Done that.  Still doing it.  I always say grief is like trying to crawl out of a hole.  Just when you think you're getting to the top because you can see the light, you slip and end up at the bottom to start it all over again.  Over time the waves don't come as often or last as long.  The holidays, dates etc. certainly don't help the situation. 

yosemitemom

I am in a similar spot in my grieving and my loss was in June. I feel like it's a combination of the holidays, the shooting in CT, etc. It's been a rough week for me.

Jennifer271012

((HUGS)) I totally understand what you're saying. I'm not sure if it's the approaching holidays/hormones or what but I've found this week to be an incredibly sad one. I also thought I was doing really well and then I got super emotional this week and can't seem to come out of it.

calibride2005

We are all here in the same spot you are.  It's not abnormal what you are going through.  I am going through the same thing.  I have been eating away my pain....yes, I know that's bad.  Hopefully, it will ease up a bit.

You're in my prayers.  ((Hugs))

HullGut

You are not alone at all. I thought I was doing so well and really getting stronger and now I cannot stop thinking about Hunter. I am so overwhelmed with the sadness again, I am blaming Christmas. I am just pushing through and trying to keep it together but I am nervous for tuesday. 

Hang in there..