Weird feeling

thecuddleeffect

I feel lonely no matter who/how many people I am with.

I feel almost homesick, constantly. I guess I just miss having my two little buddies with me. But I never thought I would feel so lonely.

Noethola

It is lonely, knowing you should still be carrying two little growing lives within you. Its lonely knowing that after you deliver your babies, you should be holding them. It is lonely, because even if others held you babies, you were the only one to carry them. They were a part of you, you were sharing the same blood in your veins.

Please know you are not alone.

jrebele

I think why I feel lonely is because I have so many supportive people they don't understand what I am going through, even to some extent my DH.  I know that he lost a child too and is struggling but I don't think he gets the depth of the loss I feel.  I hate that being around me is uncomfortable for some.  Today, I went to lunch with a few women that I used to work with because we are all out on leave and they were sharing their labor experiences and got all quiet when I jumped in.  I know that there is a sad ending to my story but I like talking about both my girls and don't feel I should ignore the daughter I lost in favor for the daughter that we have with us.

rlajambe

I remember feeling so lonely right after my loss.  I remember begging my DH not leave during the first week after my first loss.  You develop this connection with your baby/babies.  You talk to them.  

And now that's gone.  It's normal to feel that way.

The only thing that made me feel connected to my Isabelle was to hold her urn.  I know it sounds weird, but when it hold it, I can feel her with me.

Try to find your special way to connect with your babies.  It may help your loneliness.