Nobody else will *get* it

spain116

Tomorrow is LO's birthday. She's happy, healthy and strong and we have so much to celebrate.  But, today, I am a sad mama.  A little sad because we are officially closing the baby chapter, but also because today brings back lots of sad and scary memories.  One year ago today, after every treatment known to man and more than 7 weeks of hospital bedrest, my body gave up.  The contractions couldn't be stopped and my water broke.  The doctor removed the cerclage-- the little stitch that had protected my baby from the outside wold was gone.

So much has happened since that day one year ago.  I need to keep reminding myself that she's great- tall, smart and strong with a head full of wild curls.  Despite all that happened, she's amazing.  I know you guys will understand why I cry as I type this.  Enjoy your amazing little ones!  Happy Holidays.

jennbent

What a wonderful post!  Happy Birthday to your LO!!!

katie4253

It gets better after their first birthday. Then, after the due date it gets better too. It's okay to be sad. Totally normal, natural, and I feel healthy. 

christine6980

Crying as I read this! Ugh I will feel the same way when my little one has her first birthday! Us preemie mommies go through a very different experience than others. It's okay to cry, becuase they are also happy tears!