Late Term and Child Loss

I finally made myself go.

DH and I went to visit Mason's grave yesterday. It was the first time I had been there since his service. I'm not sure why I decided I needed to go right then. I'm also not sure if or when I'll be able to go back.
This has been such a hard week and the ones ahead aren't going to be any easier. Losing this pregnancy and undergoing the DnC when I should have been having Mason was so, so difficult. It brought back so much of the guilt and heartache.

Ladies, thank you all. This board is so amazing, plus it is so nice to know I am not alone.

Re: I finally made myself go.

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  • I'm so sorry.  The first visit is rough.  I remember trying to avoid it thinking it would somehow be easier later - which it wasn't.  I finally told myself (and is a mantra I use a lot) that "we've experienced the worst, nothing else is anything."  The first time was really, really hard.  Then it was ok for a while, then the engraving was done on his stone and it was hard again - made it more permanent.  Now I go quite a bit.  Sometimes when I need a good cry, sometimes when I just miss him and on special days.  I sometimes go by myself.  Sometimes with DH and sometimes with our dog too.  You are not alone.  If you don't go again or for a while, it's ok.  If you do, that's ok too.  Our babies are in heaven all playing with each other.  Wishing you peace and love.


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  • ((hugs)) please don't feel guilty, you haven't done anything wrong.

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  • just sending you lots of hugs
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  • Was thinking of you all weekend - lots of hugs from me, too.

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  • I can understand that this is hard, but I believe that with time your anxiety will lessen. We chose to cremate our daughter and i keep her ashes in a little heart shape box.
  • It's tough. I go to just cry. It's a good think I'm mentally stable because a large part of me just wants to dig him up and take him home!
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