Im not really sure how to write this intro.
This last weekend we lost our sweet baby girl Elsie at 35w5d on Dec 8th. I got many recommendations to come over and join the loss community from many encouraging mammas. I thank those who encouraged me to come here.
We are surrounded and blessed by friends and family. So many of us are greiving, as we have not had to experience this before.
Im not really sure what to ask or anything, but I would like to make a ticker, as many of you have, so I will be checking out the Loss Blog.
Re: Intro
*ticker warning*
I am so sorry for the loss of your precious Elsie. My husband and I lost our first daughter Patricia at 31 weeks in March of this year and this board was such a source of support for me. Hopefully the information on the Loss Blog will be of some help and comfort to you. We are here for you whenever you need us, post as often or as little as you like. I am so sorry to welcome you.
I'm so sorry for your loss of Elsie. ((hugs)) This board has been a great source of comfort for me, and has helped me to know that I'm not alone. Be easy on yourself, we're here for you.
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I am so sorry for you loss. I lost my son at 40 weeks 3 days back on November 9th, I am just starting to feel like I can breath again. I will be praying for you, your family and you sweet baby Elsie. This is such a tough time of year for something like this to happen because the holiday joy is not there. I will be thinking of you and please feel free to PM if you need anything or want to talk.
Kelly
Due with baby boy # 2 in May 2016
DD #1 born January 2014
Hi, I am so glad you followed our recommendations to come here. This is a very dark time, and it makes a world of difference to have others who really do understand, have been there, and will walk with you through this. I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet Elsie. Nothing can prepare you for the loss of a child, nothing. It still seems surreal to me and it has been over 18 months. And I miss my daughter everyday. The deep darkness and despair won't last forever, even though right now I know it feels that it will. But you will be forever changed.
I don't remember if I already recommended books, but if not, I would recommend Grieving the Child I Never Knew, The One Year Book of Hope, Empty Cradle Broken Heart and Good Grief by Westberg.
I would also encourage you to visit a grief counselor (some Hospice offices offer this for free to anyone in the community following a loss) or support group. Even if you think you don't need to. It took me nearly 9 months to go, and in hindsight, I should have gone much sooner, but I could not see that.
We are all here for you. This is a long road, but you are not alone.
Hugs,
Jenn
We are so thankful that our second daughter, Lillian Elizabeth "Lily", was born healthy and happy on February 11, 2013. We love her to pieces.
We lost our first daughter, Hannah Grace on May 4, 2011. She was buried on May 14 during a beautiful service at my home church. We are grateful that if she could not be here with us, that she is healed and whole with the Lord. We look forward to the day when we will get to meet her. We love her so much.