In a slump lately (siggy warning)

jrebele

 Sorry for the vent in advance.

 

The last week or so I feel like I have entered a slump where I just can't seem to stop crying over Sophia.  I miss her so much and it seems like anything said to me lately I am super sensitive.  I recently had a huge fight with my MIL bc I had asked her to give me a call before coming into my house to hang out with our dog after I got home from lunch to find her there.  I don't care if she is there as long as I kno about it especially since I am still on leave.  It turned into her telling me I am a rude and disrespectful person and that I am projected my anger over Sophia's death onto her and that I am not the only person that lost her.  I am sorry but I was the one that carried her for 36 wonderful weeks.  I don't understand why we lost Sophia and our autopsy results haven't given us any answers other than it may have been because she was a twin.  I am just so hurt over my loss and I feel like it just keeps piling on lately.  I look at Eva and get upset becuase they looked so much alike at birth and I wonder if they would've still looked alike or would they been different.  I hate that she isn't here with us.  I am hoping that things turn around a bit because I thought I had been doing so good recently.  

starburst0928

I'm sorry you're in a slump. My MIL pisses me off sometimes too by pretending she can be as sad as me. FALSE!!!!

I hope your week turns around, feel free to vent as much here as you would like. No apologies! 

fluttergirlmoonchild79

I'm so sorry you're having a rough time right now and that your MIL is adding to the suckfest.  As if we don't have enough going on.  Be gentle on yourself and don't let your MIL get to you.  Grief definitely comes in waves.  One week you feel like you're "ok" and the next you feel worse than you ever have before.  {{HUGS}}

meli1025

I'm so sorry you're in a slump right now and that MIL is piling it on.  She should absolutely be respecting your wishes right now and that's completely insensitive of her.  Although she did lose a grandchild, no one feels the pain more than you do.  Praying for you that this slump passes and you will have a better day soon.  Do whatever you need to do to feel better.  For me, it's visiting Ava's grave and having a good cry.  For some reason I always feel at peace after that.  ((hugs)).

jbranden12

((hugs)). It is hard to have no answers and sometimes with grief the anger and frustration comes in waves. You may have been feeling good recently, and that's a good thing. On the tough days we will always be here!