I made it through...

fluttergirlmoonchild79

Corbin's 1st Angelversary.  I tried not to plan anything for yesterday because I didn't know how it would go.  DH asked me what I wanted to do yesterday and I said I had no plans other than wanting to go visit Corbin.  He then asked me if I wanted to go to Michael's and find a glass case to put some of Corbin's special things in.  We've been wanting to do it for a while but haven't gotten around to it.  We ended up buying 2 and spent the afternoon putting his special things like the outfit we brought him home in, his favorite paci, his 3D hand and foot sculpture, his funeral card and the locks of his hair that they gave us.  DH's parents came over to visit after they got off to work and we went out to dinner with them.  As much as I was against the idea of anyone visiting at the time, I was glad they did.  We watched the video we had made of all the pictures we had that was played at his funeral.  At first we were sobbing but then started cracking up at his silly faces and poses and then laughed at all his little quirks like how he loved his swing as long as it didn't swing and loved to be swaddled as long as his arms weren't included.  I didn't cry yesterday as much as I thought I would (not that I didn't.) and today I just feel a strange sense of relief and calm.  I don't know why.  I don't know if it's because I was so fearful of how the 1 year mark would be or if I'm coming to some sort of acceptance that this is our life now.  No real point to this post, just wanted to share how we spent a horrible day.

meli1025

Sending you lots of ((hugs)).  Thank you for sharing such a beautiful story about how you spent Corbin's Angelversary. 

Heatherhah

Thinking of you my friend and sending huge hugs!!!

lolee465

I'm really glad you got to do some things to honor Corbin, thinking of you today. ((hugs))

jbranden12

((hugs)) I'm glad you got to spend some time in spirit with your Corbin yesterday.

jrebele

Lots of hugs.  It sounds like you had very special day of remembering all the good.

starburst0928

Sounds like a wonderful day! Thinking of you!

OSUWifey09

Yes - what a wonderful way to spend his first angelversary. Lots of hugs to you!

lrichmond86

Thinking of you and your sweet Corbin.  Time certainly flies by. Hugs!

weddedwife

It sounds like a nice day and a wonderful way to remember Corbin. I'm glad you have a place for his special things now. Huge, huge hugs!!

karebear57

((Huge hugs)) That sounded like a wonderful way to remember Corbin. I too didn't cry as much as I thought I would. I'm glad your family were able spend the day with you!

tuscanbride2007

It sounds like you had a beautiful day remembering your sweet Corbin.

((HUGS))

buggirl72

huge ((((hugs))))