What is wrong with me? In tears

femmegem

DS just threw a toy at one of our cats and I smacked him in the forehead. It was more of a swat, but WTF is wrong with me? It was not thought out at all. He was in my lap when it happened and I just did it. When did I become Mommie Dearest?

I've had some problems with yelling and such since we moved from MI to CA, but it's been so much better lately. I've been quite calm and even-keeled with DS pretty much all the time for the past few weeks, then all of a sudden this happened out of nowhere.

I put him in time out for a couple of minutes to give both of us some time and I apologized to him afterwards. I'm so ashamed of myself. I SO do not want to be THAT mom.

I have to hope it's because I started my period last night and I'm really tired right now. I'm not trying to make excuses, just trying to figure out why I might have snapped, if that makes sense. There's no excuse, IMO.

The only thing that makes me feel slightly better is that he laughed after I swatted him and only got upset after I put him in time out, so I know I didn't hurt him. Thank goodness I didn't hurt him. I would really hate myself if I hurt my child. 

KrisBriMcBunny

(((((HUGS)))))  I think we have all had moments of bad judgements.  I know I've had my fair share over the years.

Zenya

at least you know it's wrong.  It's so hard wen we lose it with our kids.  All you can do is apologize and try harder the next time.  Can you get a break today?

femmegem

Zenya:

Can you get a break today?

If I ask DH for a break he'll watch DS for awhile. He's good like that.
 

babykin18

I agree with pp.  Take a break today.  And try not to be too hard on yourself.  He will not remember it after tomorrow.  The best thing you can do is try to figure out how he upset you so much this time so you can diffuse the situation next time. 

tinabel

oh I know how you feel, I've done that before and hated myself afterwards too...actually last night I was just so over tired and "done" at the point that my son did a similar thing and threw something at me and I smacked him on his butt and felt so horrible afterwards...it happens sometimes, but like pp said we just have to try harder to control ourselves the next time and think before our actions...*hugs* to you momma! You didn't hurt him and that's the most important thing, and he's so young he isn't going to remember it

belle204

If it makes you feel any better, I've been that mom before. Try not to beat yourself up over it. He still loves you and I'm sure he knows you didn't mean him any harm. I hope you can figure out your triggers.

Are you still on your meds?

AZ_Erica

I think we have all done one or two of those "knee jerk reactions"  A nice break would probably help.  keep your chin up, no real harm done.

LittleMamaB

Aw, hon, it happens to the best of us. I did the same thing to Miles a week or two ago for slapping the baby. And then I popped his forehead...I hated myself afterwards. He had forgotten about it five minutes later. Don't be too hard on yourself.

SumnerBride

Oh, I think we all have days like that!  I wouldn't feel too bad about it for too long.  At least you know you don't want to be that mom.

Sunflower777

Try not to beat yourself up over it, I think a lot of moms have had a moment like that. I shoved my 2 y.o. DS once. It had just been one of those days, I was trying to help him get his coat on and he was swatting at my face, and as a knee-jerk reaction, I shoved him. It wasn't a hard shove, but he wasn't expecting it and he fell over and immediately started crying. More out of shock than being hurt. The look on his face, like he couldn't believe his mother had done that to him, killed me. As it should have. That terrible feeling has stuck with me, and whenever I feel him starting to push my buttons, I know just to walk away for a second. I know how you feel, but it happens to the best of us and we learn from it.?