So I spent an hour talking to a counselor yesterday. I wouldn't say it was some miracle cure. But, it always helps to talk to someone with an outside perspective. No blame involved. She mostly listened, occasionally asking a question. DH seemed surprised that I thought it bad enough to seek help and was upset that I hadn't come to him, but it wasn't like it had been going on for weeks. It literally hit me just like a wall over the weekend and he worked/slept over the weekend. I still get anxious thinking of being alone with DS for long periods. Like I don't know what to do with him, it never seems enough or right.
After last weekend's meltdowns from too many people being around I'm not looking forward to this weekend where it turns out we have 3 people staying with us for our Christmas party on Saturday.
The dog barks everytime someone comes up the stairs that isn't DH or me so having the guest room/bathroom next to the nursery and our room (where the dog is at night) sucks.
I'll continue to keep you updated.
Re: PPD appt update
I'm glad you were able to talk to someone about it. It could be hormones still fluctuating. My aunt, who is an expert in natural medicine, told me that our progesterone levels take a drastic dip after having a baby and maybe it could help to take progesterone supplements. She said that's a big reason why women experience PPD because estrogen dominance wreaks havoc. Anyway, just throwing it out there. You're in my thoughts cedenton!!
Mom of 2 monkeys and 1 on the way!
Christian12/06, Liam 08/12, Monkey #3 10/10
No, it wouldn't really be feasible, unfortunately. Thinking about getting one of those citronella dog collars to help with the barking, though.