Vent pg mentioned

brihall003

I had been emotional all Thanksgiving weekend, having a terrible case of the "should haves." I should have been 18w, I should have been focusing more on decorating a nursery than a Christmas tree...all the shoulds you can think of. To top it off I started my first AF since my DnC, which brought up all sorts of emotions.

So imagine my dismay when I get to work this morning, somewhat happy for an escape from my own thoughts, when my friend comes in to speak to me about something...you guessed it, to tell me she is pregnant. She was actually very considerate about how she went about telling me and purposefully told me first away from everyone we eat lunch with, so I wouldn't be side blinded later. I do appreciate that. But, it seriously messed with my head anyway so I called in for a sub and went home. I ugly cried for like an hour and now DH and I are running errands, including going to get what I hope will be my last weekly blood draw. I figured today is already ruined so I might as well get that over with too.

Didn't really have a point I guess, hence the vent. But I've just been feeling like no one in the world but you ladies understands how painful and isolating this all is.

Jennifer271012

I'm so so sorry. (HUGS)

baby101010

sorry you are having a rough day

nbcarlson

So sorry you had such a rough day! Hope your husband can make it a little better. Hope tomorrow is better! (((hugs)))

MrsFunk07

I am so sorry for your loss and your feelings of "shoulds". I am in the same place. It is so frustrating, yet I can't stop keeping track of how things "should" be.

In honor of our recent holiday, I have been trying to focus on the things I am thankful for. I need to focus on what I already have and appreciate in my life.

Holidays are hard.

I am sending positive thoughts your way.

Mrsfunk07

edenrivers

*hugs* to you. I hope that your day got better. It sucks to have all of those things pile up on you at once.

heather52904

I'm sorry (HUGS)

Gatorsgirl731

I'm sorry Bri, I just got done ugly crying over OPK's, Laura's loss, and my bff texting to tell me her's will be born earlier than expected.  Oh and the dog got out and scared the chickens is what started the whole tear fest.  DH is very confused and is now telling me he won't watch football if it makes me feel better....wtf?

brihall003

Gatorsgirl731:

I'm sorry Bri, I just got done ugly crying over OPK's, Laura's loss, and my bff texting to tell me her's will be born earlier than expected.nbsp; Oh and the dog got out and scared the chickens is what started the whole tear fest.nbsp; DH is very confused and is now telling me he won't watch football if it makes me feel better....wtf?

Thanks girl. It seems like the littlest thing is always what sets off the cry session. I was so sad to learn about Laura's loss as well and my heart just hurts for all of us for our various struggles through this journey.

MamaWomat

I'm so sorry. I hope your day got a little brighter by the end. There really are days when it feels like every other person between the ages of 20 and 40 is pregnant.

Thanksgiving sucked for just the reasons you mention. Here's hoping that we all make it through the December "shoulds" and into a new year of "hopefully wills." 

mayonegg

((hugs))