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I'm back.

Laurakat81Laurakat81 member
in TTC After a Loss
I don't even know what to say. I'm completely lost and pissed off. My second beta came back terrible. Loss #4 is imminent.

[spoiler] My Blog: Grow Baby Grow

BFP #1: 12/2009 m/c 1/2010 BFP #2: 6/2010 m/c 8/2010

BFP #3: 10/2011 ectopic 11/2011 (right tube removed, learned left tube was probably nonfunctional due to scar tissue from infection after m/c)

3 failed IUIs, IVF #1: 18R, 12M, 10F, 3 poor quality 5d embryos transferred= BFP #4!!!!!

Betas: 9dp5dt: 64 ~14dp5dt: 91 (expecting miscarriage, doubling time of 236 hours) ~16dp5dt: 200~18dp5dt: 500

First Ultrasound at 6w2d revealed two sacs, only one with a heartbeat

LK arrived after 42 weeks on August 14, 2013! Beautiful, healthy, and happy!

TTC#2: IVF booked for April 2015

Surprise BFP#5 February 19, 2015 EDD: November 2, 2015

Betas: 10dpo: 10, 14dpo: 77, 17dpo: 270

First Ultrasound at 5w1d showed a miracle UTE baby! And right ovary ovulation to left fallopian tube.

JD arrived at 38 weeks on October 20, 2015.

TTC #3: Since October 2017. BFP #6 July 2, 2018 EDD: March 16, 2019 [/spoiler]


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  • nrcrossnrcross member
    I am so sorry to see this. I just saw a post you did yesterday on PGAL and was so happy to see you over there. I will being praying for you.

    TTC Since June 2012 BFP #1 08/01/12, D&C 09/07/12 9 weeks, Blighted Ovum BFP #2 01/01/13 m/c 5 weeks BFP #3 03/02/13 D&C 4/15/13 m/c 11 weeks, 07/19/13 Hysteroscopy for Scar Tissue, 9/12813 Hysteroscopy & Laparoscopy for Scar Tissue, Cleared to TTC October 2013. 

    BFP # 4 11/01/2013 EDD 07/12/14

    Dear God, Since I couldn't hold my little one in my lap and tell him about you, could you hold him in your lap and tell him about me?

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  • lovelainielovelainie member

    OMG.

    I have no other words, except I am so, so sorry.

    (((((((((((hugs)))))))))))) 

    TTC with MFI, PCOS, and endometriosis since February 2010
    BFP January 20,2012, Loss confirmed January 22,2012
    March-August 2012: Various medicated/IUI cycles, all BFN
    Laparoscopy/Hysteroscopy October 2012: Fall Cleaning, Uterus Edition
    BFP 2-17-12 @12DPO Beta#1: 256 Beta#2: 1061
    EDD:10-27-13
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  • katharine25katharine25 member

    Nooooooooooooooo no nononononononononnonono

    I don't even know what to say K.

    Fluck. Fluck and so many hugs

    Married My Love on 6/18/2006
    BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
    BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
    BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
    BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
    BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
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  • misternmissmisternmiss member

    K, I am so, so sorry.  I wish there was more I could say or do, but instead, I will just send you (((hugs))).

    This.flucking.blows.

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  • hungryhippohungryhippo member
    FLUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!

    FLUCK!!!!

    I'm so sorry you are back here. Devastating news. Huge, warm, squishy hugs. Fluck.
    TTC #1 since January 2011
    BFP#1 April 12, 2011, EDD December 24, 2011, strong heart beat at 7w3d, d&c at 10w6d
    BFP#2 Oct 24, 2011, natural miscarriage, EDD unknown
    After RPL testing my losses and subsequent infertility are considered unexplained.
    Cycle #22: Femara, TI, and progesterone = BFP!! 
    BFP#3 Dec 21, 2012. Beta #1 @14dpo = 134, progesterone 67.8. Beta #2 @ 17dpo = 664! Team green, EDD 9/1/13, healthy baby boy born 9/12/13!
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    Congratulations to the fabulous KGS2003! Her sweet boys are here! Grow boys grow!!!
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  • buggirl72buggirl72 member
    No! I am so sorry ((((hugs)))).

    The day the Bump died - Jasper is wise
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  • SA1112SA1112 member
    I'm so sorry. This is so not fair. Huge Huge Hugs.

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    BFP #1 3.16.12. mmc 5.7.12 at 11 weeks ~Avery Cameron~

    BFP #2 12.12.12. mmc 1.22.13 at 10 weeks ~Theodore Michael~

    D&C #2 Chromosome analysis results: Translocation Trisomy 14

    My RPL Testing: Homozygous MTHFR, normal karyotype

    DH's karyotype results: Robertsonian Translocation 13:14

    BFP #3 9.10.13 mc at 4 weeks~Our little May Flower~ 

    BFP #4 10.13.13- Our Rainbow Baby, a little girl, arrived June 25, 2014! 

                                                                              


     

     

     

     

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  • lincoln79lincoln79 member

    NOOOOOOOO!!!!!! i was so rooting for you!

    (((HUGE HUGS)))) 

    TTC #1 since 12/2010 DH: MFI, cancer survivor Me: Resected septate uterus, lap treated mild endo, tubes open, ovulate on own, autoimmune disease 3 Failed IUI's (2/2012, 4/2012, 6/2012) 
    IVF #1 August 2012. BFP! Beta #1 56.7 Beta #2 150 One baby, one heartbeat on 9/20/12! no h/b @7w6d. dandc @8w0d, 
    FET #1 December 2012, BFN
    FET #2 February 2013, no embies survived thaw
    IVF #2, BFP #2, Loss #2 March 2013, Scar tissue discovered, RPL testing,
    IVF #3, BFP #3, Loss #3 (twins) September 2013
    Hostile ute, moving onto Gestational Carrier!

    GC/FET #1 of 1 5AA blast and 1 compacted blast, February 2014, BFP #4 on 3/1/2014!
    6w u/s 1 bean with h/b of 145 bpm, 8w u/s 187 bpm
    EDD 11/7/14. Please, please, please stick little one!

    Praying unceasingly for a miracle. ALL welcome!

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  • KatieintheCityKatieintheCity member
    No! No no no no! I am so heartbroken for you, Laurakat. Sending massive {{{hugs}}} the size of which you cannot imagine, and lots of T&Ps.
    Mr. & Mrs. B, Est. 10.23.2009
    m/c: 9/06/12
    LTB: 10/23/13
    Baby B 2.0 EDD: 3/15/16

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  • LLPtobeLLPtobe member
    NO! Oh honey, I am so incredibly sorry. No one wanted you to come back here. Sending you big, warm (((hugs))).

    July TTCAL Siggy Challenge - Favorite Children's Book
    Donkey-Donkey - Roger Duvoisin 1968 Vintage Childrens Book
    Surprise BFP 5/15/12, EDD 1/29/13, mm/c @ 8wks, discovered at 11wks, D&C 7/11/12
    AF finally arrived on Christmas after 167 days of waiting.
    TTA until January 2014
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  • SaraSchneider6SaraSchneider6 member
    I'm so so sorry, sending ((HUGS)) your way!
    Me - 27, DH - 32

    EDD #1 3/30/13 - MC 8/24/12
    EDD #2 12/28/2013 - MC 05/01/2013
    EDD #3  07/06/2014  DS 7/8/14
    EDD#4  08/22/2016
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  • RunningGal900RunningGal900 member
    Noooooo. I am so so sorry :-(
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  • AmyM72AmyM72 member
    No. So sorry to hear this. Hugs to you.
    About me:AMA 41 BFP 8/1/12 EDD 4/8/12 Found no Heartbeat 9/5/12 D&C 9/12/12

    BFP 12/13/12 EDD 8/22/13 Lilah Ruby born 8/8/13

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  • nbcarlsonnbcarlson member
    No, I am so sorry. I saw your blog post and then saw thay you posted over on PGAL and I was so happy for you. This is so unfair. I am so so sorry laurakat. Huge hugs.

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  • TLR813TLR813 member

    Please tell me this is some sick, twisted joke? 

    I can't believe you have to come back here again!  My heart is breaking for you!  This just isn't fair!  A thousand hugs aren't enough!  I'm so sorrySad

    BFP #1: 3/3/12, EDD: 11/11/12, Missed M/C: 4/3/12 @ 8 weeks 2 days, D&C: 4/6/12
    BFP #2: 6/29/12, EDD: 3/8/13, Natural M/C: 7/16/12 @ 6 weeks 2 days
    Hashimoto's Thyroiditis, Hypothyroidism
    BFP #3: Kendall Grace, born 9/30/13
    BFP #4: 9/3/14, EDD: 5/16/15, Missed M/C: 10/6/14 @ 8 weeks 2 days, D&C: 10/8/14
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  • Roxycc55Roxycc55 member
    I am so so sorry.

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    "As long as I live you will live. As long as I live you will be loved."

    BFP#1 3/31/12 EDD 12/1/12,No HB 6/6/12 (14 weeks 4 days), D&C 6/11/12 (15 weeks 2 days)*Arabella Ann*

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    BFP#2 5/21/14 EDD 1/27/15 *GROW BABY GROW*

     
     


     

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  • SmootiepieSmootiepie member
    Oh hon, this is so far beyond unfair.  *HUGE HUGS*
    Me (28): fine, DH (28): MFI
    Married 6/21/09
    Off BCP and TTC 4/17/11
    BFP #1 (ended in CP) 7/15/11
    Varicocelectomy surgery 9/4/12 - T improved to normal, but still low count

    Current Status: Pursuing Jan '15 IVF w/ ICSI
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  • brihall003brihall003 member
    Oh no!! I am do very very sorry!!! I am sending big HUGS and prayers your way.
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  • Mrs.E.07Mrs.E.07
    Noooooo!!!!!!!! I am so, so incredibly sorry. (((((huge squishy hugs))))

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    TTC #1 since Sept 2011
    BFP#1 1/31/12. Empty sac discovered 3/5/12. MTX due to location in uterine horn.
    BFP#2 2/27/13. Empty sac confirmed 3/20/13. Mifepristone + cytotec.
    Currently TTA until Fall 2013, waiting for operative hysteroscopy
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  • shellycoshellyco member
    Oh laurakat, I am so so sorry.  I was rooting so hard for you.  Huge (((HUGS))) to you and YH. 
    DD 9/2/13


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  • ravenclaw1ravenclaw1 member
    oh heII no. I'm so sorry. I can't even begin to say how sorry I am for you and your family :(
    BFP #1 - Mango - 6/11/12, EDD 2/22/12 Natural MC 7/15/12
    BFP #2 - Nacho - 10/14/12, EDD 6/20/13, MMC 8 weeks, D&C 11/16/12
    All testing shows both H and I are perfectly normal. Baby Nacho had triploidy. 
    Back to normal business December 2012
    BFP #3 - Froggy - 1/15/13, EDD 9/27/13 TEAM GREEN
    It's a girl! Alice - Born 9/20/13, 8lbs 2oz

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  • heather52904heather52904 member
    Oh no! I'm so sorry. HUGE HUGS

    TTC Since 8/2011
    BFP #1 5/13/12 * EDD 1/24/13 * MC at 7 wks 4 days on 6/11/12
    BFP #2 5/13/13 * Current EDD 1/23/14

    Baby N born 2/8/14


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  • km_mdkm_md member
    Oh laurakat. I know that nothing I say can do anything at this point. Big huge (((hugs))) I am so so sorry for you. This is so unfair. 


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  • Smash2009Smash2009 member
    I'm just pissed. Pissed FOR you. There is nothing else to say. It is so unfair, sweetie, and you and your DH will be in my thoughts and prayers. I am SO SO sorry.
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  • egsquaredegsquared member
    OMGosh! LK, my heart sank when I saw this post. I'm am so so sorry. This is so unfair. I wish I had words to make you feel better, but I just have [[[[[[hugs]]]]]].
    TTC #1 since 6/08. Cycle #6 - BFP 12/22/08, EDD 9/3/09, DD 8/14/09 at 37w1d
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    TTC #2 since 6/11
    me=36 - low AMH, DH=38
    BFP #2 - 8/31/11, EDD 5/10/12, M/C 9/23/11
    BFP #3 - 3/4/12, EDD 11/14/12, CP 3/11/12
    BFP #4 - 5/9/12, EDD 1/19/13, CP 5/11/12
    BFP #5 - 8/22/12, EDD 5/5/13, CP 8/24/12
    IVF#1 - January 2013 - EPP/Antagonist - 7R, 3M, 2F, 3dt of 2 8-cell embies
    BFP #6 - 2/3/13, EDD 10/15/13, DS 9/18/13 at 36w1d
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  • Wsmommj28Wsmommj28 member
    I'm so very sorry...
    Started TTC August 2012. BFP 10/17/12...natural MC on 10/23/12, Missing our little bean every day!  11/13-started seeking help at fertility clinic. Me: 29 (ovulation/menstrual irregularities, HSG clear), DH: 31 (1% morphology, rest is normal) 
     SHOCKING BFP during cycle prior to IUI #1 on 1-26-14. Beta 1: 39.1, Beta 2: 100, Beta 3: 234.5!!! keep growing little one! EDD 10/7/14BabyFruit Ticker Image and video hosting by TinyPic      
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  • QuigleyCat1QuigleyCat1 member
    Oh my God, no!  I'm so very sorry Laurakat.  Words escape me for how horrible this makes me feel.  You're in my thoughts sweetheart. (((hugs)))

    Lilypie - (dLe1)

     

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  • lindsayanne14lindsayanne14 member
    Laurakat, I am so very sorry you are going through this again! Huge hugs!

    BFP #1 4/10/12 D&C 6/5/12@ 12.5wks EDD 12/17/12
    BFP #2 9/10/12 CP 9/19/12@ 5.5wks EDD 5/21/13
    BFP# 3 12/3/12...Lukas James born 8/15/13
    BFP# 4 8/4/14 EDD 4/13/15

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  • DebateThisDebateThis member

    FUUUUUUUUUUUUUUCK.

    I am so, so sorry. I just want to hug you. 

    Six years of infertility and loss, four IUIs, one IVF and one very awesome little boy born via med-free birth 10.24.13.
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  • jokyhojokyho member
    So so sorry. Big big HUGS.
    BFP #1 June 1, 2012 missed m/c July 3, 2012 Cytotec July 12, 2012 image
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  • Jennifer271012Jennifer271012
    I'm so so sorry. Life is full of ***. :(
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  • baby101010baby101010 member
    NOOOOO!!!!!! I am so very sorry!!! It's just wrong and unfair.  Huge hugs!!! I am so sad that you have had to come back under these circumstances
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  • MrsFunk07MrsFunk07 member
    NOOO!! I know we were all so excited for you. I am so sorry, Laurakat.

    We are all thinking of you and sending you big hugs and positive thoughts.

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  • mgh2008mgh2008 member
    NO!   I am so sad and mad.  I am so incredibly sorry honey.  This is not fair at all.
    BFP #1- 12/3/09, EDD- 8/7/10, Missed M/C at 8 weeks & D&C- 1/5/10, BFP #2- July 2010, Baby Charlie Born March 29, 2011, BFP #3- 4/12/12- EDD- 12/21/12, Missed M/C at 10 1/2 weeks 5/29/12, D&C 6/1/12- testing results showed triploidy, IF testing all normal, February 2013- IUI#1, femara, follistim, trigger =BFN, March 2013- IUI#2, femara, follistim, trigger= BFP #4, 3/20/12, Beta#1 16dpo= 397, Beta #2 18dpo= 1037, Beta#3 24dpo= 11,589- EDD 11/30/13- It's a Girl!!! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker BabyFruit Ticker
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  • edgiaedgia member
    I am so so sorry. Big (((Hugs))).
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  • jenohoustonjenohouston member
    Oh no, I'm so very sorry, sending you lots of T&P. 
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  • klbowieklbowie member
    This is bullsh*t.  I am so so unbelievably sorry.  I hate you are back here.  Actually hate doesn't even touch how much I dislike this.  I don't even know what to say.  You have made such an impact on me and it kills me that I can not do anything for you!  Sending you (((((hugs))))). 
    BFP#1 02/19/12 missed mc 03/30/12 1st D&C 05/16/12 2nd D&C 08/17/12 
    BFP #2 06/26/13 EDD 2/26/14 Hoping for my rainbow baby!
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  • EKGibsEKGibs member
    Oh Laura. I'm so sorry. There are no words. ((((BIG HUGS)))
    TTC since 4/28/07
    Diagnosed w/ endometriosis 12/2010 Laproscopic surgery & 6 months of Lupron
    BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
    Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.

    June '13 Decided to go the adoption route!

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  • luciddreamer106luciddreamer106 member
    Oh no! I'm sorry you have bad news. (hugs)
    Multiple TTCAL 1image
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     TTC #1 since March 2011 
    BFP #1: EDD 4/16/13~~blighted ovum w/ 2 gestational sacs~~Loss on 9/18/12
    BFP #2: EDD 9/3/13~~Slow HB at 1st U/S~~MMC -Loss on 2/13/13
    9/13, 10/13, 1/14: letrozole + trigger + TI = All BFNs
    3/14: IUI#1 letrozole/Bravelle/Menopur + trigger = BFN
    BFP #3: EDD 1/27/15 Please be our rainbow! ...Team Green


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  • ac5008ac5008 member
    I am so, so very sorry :( Huge hugs sent your way right now.

    Love is multiplied: DS #1: 1.5.99 ~ DS #2: 9.23.11 ~ DD 8.29.13

    m/c 11/12/12 - sleep tight baby bean.

    Bitty Baby #4, please stick around - we already love you so very much!

    Ultrasound 11/4 - TWO HEARTBEATS!!!

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