PPD?

cedenton

I'm pretty much a mess, ladies. DH is on 12 hour shifts so if he's not off then he's sleeping or working.

I dread days off because I'm with DS all day. I get so bored and lonely. I'm terrified of taking DS out and him melting down. He won't nap much for me, but takes 2.5 hour naps for the nanny during the week. I worry I'm sitting in front of the TV with him too much. But I can only read so many kids books.

I'm really insecure about reading his cues so he's on a schedule and then I'm worried he wouldn't be getting enough if he went through a growth spurt.

He sleeps well at night but because he's slow to gain weight we have to wake him to feed in the MOTN, then he wakes up at 5am. I seen no end on sight to this because of his need to gain weight. I'm afraid we're teaching him NOT to STTN. I'm afraid to give him larger bottles or feed him more often because I don't want to overfeed him and aggravate his reflux.

Basically I'm horribly insecure as a mother and bored out of my mind and then feel guilty about it. I have 10 days off at the holidays and am already dreading it. I have been crying all the time.

Thinking of Calling my OB tomorrow.

valeriej6

Huge (((hugs))) to you. I feel bored with DD sometimes, too...you're not alone! There's nothing easy about raising a baby. Definitely call your OB tomorrow and see what they recommend. And, vent here all you need to

CLeigh03

Huge hugs. Call your OB. You are not alone.

AprilAngie

I have ppd and anxiety. I have four kids. U can read my post a few posts down.
I would call ur dr ASAP. Try the mess and other things. Get some IRL supports in place. The guilt sometimes from ppd is hard. Be confident in ur parenting as I u can't then it will make u second guess ur parenting. If u have questions about ur lo, ask their pedi or us, or read books. Hugs and good luck!!

krissi813

Staying home with LO can be boring at times and you are certainly not damaging your LO by watching TV. You don't have to read baby books all the time. I can count on one hand how many times I've read a book to DS. The most important thing is to remember you are a good mom by even worrying about any of these things.

 Hugs! 

cedenton

Thanks everyone. I reached out to my mom and other mommy friends and one came over for a while. I felt a lot better afterwards. Still going to call my OB tomorrow.