Peeking in to say Hi

johnnys june

Hi lovies!  Forgive me for not being around?  Emma will be 5 months this Sunday, and it's been a whirlwind 5 months for sure.  I've missed you all and I've tried to lurk when I can.  I just can't keep up these days.  I'm hoping that will change and I want to try to check in more often.

To all the new faces...I'm so sorry you have to be here, but I'm glad you found this group.  There are so many wonderful ladies here.  I'm somewhat of an "oldie" and since having my rainbow baby back in June I haven't had much time to get on, especially with our laptop being down.  Huge *hugs* to you all.

Update on me:  We celebrated Logan's 2nd birthday on October 28th.  I wasn't prepared for the emotions that flooded me that morning.  I looked at my baby girl and she gave me the biggest smile that morning.  I broke down into tears.  It was so incredibly heart wrenching and bittersweet.  A week later was his angelversary.  It snuck up on me.  I honestly didn't even realize the date in all the everyday chaos that is my life.  When I did realize it, it hit me like a ton of bricks.  This grieving/healing journey seems like an old, familar hat most days, but on days like that, it feels raw, and new all over again.  Emma definitely brings a whole new joy to our lives though.  She's so incredibly alert right now.  As I bounced her around the house one night her eyes locked onto something behind me.  I turned around to see her staring and smiling at a picture of Logan that hangs on the refrigerator.  She stayed that way for several minutes.  I can't even describe the feelings that overcame me.  I don't know what goes through a baby's mind, but it was as if she knew exactly who he was.  I like to think she does.

Wherever you are in your grief, know that you are not alone. 

weddedwife

Hi Johnnys! I have been thinking about you lately. I always look for you over on PAL when I'm there.

So glad to hear that Emma is thriving and bringing you so much joy daily. I love that story about her looking at Logan's picture. I don't know what babies think either but that story is pretty cool.

Don't feel bad for not being around, you're off living life like you should be. I'm sure it seems crazy that 2 years have passed; I just passed Nathaniel's 1st bday and I have no idea what happened to the last year of my life.

Huge hugs to you, and happy belated birthday, Logan!

tuscanbride2007

Hi Johnny's! It is good to "see" you. I have been keeping up with your blog. Miss Emma is too cute! And I love the story about her staring at her brother's picture. I like to think that babies see more than we do.

Hope you are doing well and happy belated birthday to your sweet Logan.

jbranden12

Hey lady! *hugs* to you too. I love reading your blog and getting updates on Emma. Thank you for continuing to share your journey with us!

fluttergirlmoonchild79

Hey there!  Was thinking of you and Logan on the 28th.  Our angels share the same birthday.  I'm glad to hear things are going well with Emma.  Happy to see some non-newbies around here.  I've missed you guys!  {{HUGS}}