Finally all of my results are in : (

meli1025

And I have no concrete answers.  The autopsy showed that she was perfectly normal, but my cultures on the placenta did show Group B Strep.  My doctor said that they can't determine if the Group B Strep was the cause, since the placenta passed through the birth canal and it could've been picked up that way.  I'm just so drained, I want to know WHY.  From everything I've read about Group B Strep, the biggest risk is at the end of pregnancy when the baby passes through the birth canal.  I had it with ds but since he was a c-section I wound up not even needing the antibiotics as I would've gotten had he been born vaginally.  I've also read that the risk during pregnancy is if the cervix opens, which mine didn't.  I'm so confused!  This bacteria also never goes away since it lives in the large intestine and multiplies quickly, so there's never a way to get rid of it once and for all.  Now I'm so scared to try again for the slight chance that it could've been the cause.  My doctor said that plenty of women have it and go on to have healthy babies, but I don't know what to do!  Anyone know more about this?  ( 

jbranden12

I'm sorry you didn't get the answers you were hoping for . I don't know anything about Group B strep, but it must be difficult to have a possible but not definite cause.

starburst0928

The autopsy on Bradley was inconclusive too. It sucks to not know why our babies died. I usually just try to think that he was perfectly healthy and some freak accident occurred in my uterus...

I hope you're able to accept that you won't 100% know why this happened. It'll drive us all nuts if we dwell on it everyday... Maybe someday

buggirl72

I'm so sorry meli (((hugs))).

knmessner

I lost my twins to group b strep and the doctor said it was from my cervix opening early.  I am as nervous as you are about trying again as well, although I have heard from others that many women go on to have healthy babies. Stay positive..

ally2011

I completely understand the lack of answers and knowing why.  The truth is, there is no why.  You should have your baby, and so should I.  We live in a very broken world.

For us, the best information we ever got was that they *think* our daughter had an incredibly rare, always fatal, very severe condition that they *think* is recessive genetic meaning that any pregnancy has a 25% chance of the baby having it too....but again, no one can tell us with 100% certainty one way or the other.

You are still early in your grief journey, I would say not to worry right now with thinking about trying again.....I remember being absolutely terrified of the thought, and also incredibly sad at the thought of never having that experience.  A year after our loss we did decide that we did not want to live a life wondering what if, and we did try again, and this baby is so far healthy and everything has been ok.  Of course I full well know there are no guarantees so we just try to appreciate each day.

There is no rush to decide, take it one day at a time.  Allow yourself time to work through your grief and in time it will get easier to think about the future.

Hugs,

Jenn