Late Term and Child Loss

Twin loss due to strep b

I lost my twins, a boy and a girl on October 28 at 20 weeks and 5 days. We were overjoyed with the news of twins after our second round of ivf and thought everything was finally ok. My first round of ivf resulted in an early miscarriage at 6 weeks so going to 20 weeks was a milestone for us.

I went in for a routine check and the doctor noticed my cervix had shortened and there was sludge, which meant there was a possibility of an infection. A week prior to this, my stomach had gotten really really tight but thought it was just normal due to carrying two babies. I also had a little discharge, mostly clear fluid. It was such a small amount, I just that it was normal as well.

The doctor sent me immediately to the university hospital where his partner, my other doctor was so he can do further testing. Many tests were ran to see if there was an infection, UTI, etc. An amnio was done as well and all test came negative. We were given the choice of just waiting to see what happens or to get a cerclage. We opted for a cerclage, it seemed like the right decision to make and it would increase the chance for the twins survival at the same time, it would increase the possibility of sewing in an infection. It was a 50/50 chance. At this point, I had dialated quite a bit and my cervix was open.

I had a cerclage put in after a day of laying in the hospital bed with my bottom up. The surgery was successful even though ther sac was bulging out, they were able to push the sac back in. I stayed in the hospital for another 24 hours before they discharged me. I went home and woke up at 3 am feeling very cold and I was shivering. My husband put extra blankets on me and I went to back to sleep. I woke up at 7 am with a fever of 103. We called the doctor and was told to get back to the hospital. I knew at this point something was very wrong.

They ran a few more test but again didn't find anything. I was given tylenol for the fever and waited for my doctor. While we were waiting, they checked the heartbeats of the babies and it around 220 beat per minute, this meant they were very very sick. I was then given the option of delivering them or getting a d&c. I opted for the d&c, I am not sure why but I did. I think I was scared. As they I walked into a room to wait for my doctor, my water broke. I was given a sedative via my iv to calm me down. I was pretty much gone as the last thing I remember was my husband giving my a kiss and telling me he loved me. I remember wanting to tell him I loved him but I couldn't get the words out and then I thought to myself, what if somthing happened to me during the surgery and I would never get the chance to tell him I loved him.

Little did I know that it could've been the last time for me to tell my husband I loved him. After the successful surgery of taking out the babies, I went into septic shock and nearly lost my life. The doctor told my husband I was really sick and so my husband asked it was life threatening and was told it was so he was advised to call my family to come see me. The fortunate part of this was that I was under so I had no idea all of this was going on. All I know is that when I woke up the next day, everyone was so surprised and shocked about the remarkable recovery. Had I not been at this particular hospital, I would have lost my life. There was a team of amazing doctors who took great great care of me.

It turned out that I had strep b and it got into my uterus when my cervix opened and infected the babies and made me sick and made the babies sick as well.

I never got to see my babies, all I have are their hand and foot prints and their ashes. While I feel incredibly lucky to be alive, part of me wishes I wasn't so I don't have to feel all this pain and sorrow. I am counting my blessings every day and I am hopeful I can be a mom some day. There is not a day that goes by without me thinking about the twins and my great love for them. My heart feels like it is forever broken.

Re: Twin loss due to strep b

  • I am so, so sorry for your losses. I lost my Zachary at 20 weeks due to a placental abruption. When I arrived at L&D they discussed the option of a cerclage but they were unable to stop my contractions enough to test to see if there was an infection and to do the procedure. What was explained to me was that once the infection started there is nothing they can do. It is essentially a run-away train and your body is going to naturally act to protect itself. 

    Try to be easy on yourself. You loss is so incredibly recent. ((((hugs)))) 


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  • I am so incredibly sorry for the loss of your twins.  While no one wants to find themselves on this board, you have come to a place of incredibly supportive women who really understand. Please know that you aren't alone and we are always here for you.  Sending you lots of hugs.
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  • I am so so sorry for the loss of your twins.  ((Hugs)).  
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  • I am so very sorry for the loss of your lil boy and girl. That had to be so scary. I'm glad they were able to save you. Did you and your dh have names picked out yet? I hate that you find yourself here but this is a great group of ladies. We are here for you at anytime. Sending big ((hugs))
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  • I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your twins. I hate that you are joining us but welcome to the board. The days ahead will be hard but the wonderful ladies here will be here when you need us. Please remember to be genlte with yourself. You are in my thoughts and prayers. (((Big Huge Hugs)))
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    I am so deeply sorry for the loss of your twins. I hate that you are joining us but welcome to the board. The days ahead will be hard but the wonderful ladies here will be here when you need us. Please remember to be genlte with yourself. You are in my thoughts and prayers. (((Big Huge Hugs)))

    I am so so sorry for your loss. Words cannot even begin to express the heart ache that this causes.

    I lost my twins on the 27th of October under very similar circumstances.

    Thoughts and prayers to you and your husband during this very difficult time.

    If you'd like to talk please feel free to private message me on the board.

    xoxo 

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  • I am so sorry for the loss of your precious boy and girl. And for the traumatic experience, but am glad you had such a remarkable recovery.

    I wish you peace and comfort during this time.

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  • Hi Shawnna, I am so thankful for your thoughts. It means so much to me that you took the time to reply to me.  Thank you and I am counting all my blessings.

    Most Sincerely,

    Kabao

  • Hello all, I just want to thank each and everyone of you for your thoughts and comments, it means so so much to me and it is helping me heal.  I feel so fortunate to have found this board and this great support group. Thank you thank you!  You all are in my thoughts and prayers.
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