First there was denial, then a bit of bargaining, then anger hit pretty hard for a good amout of time. I also went through the stage where I needed to read any and all information I could find to explain what happened or give me hope for "next time". During most of those stages I felt like I needed to read every post, get to know everyone and write on almost every thread.
I think I've hit the "meh" stage? I don't recognize about 80% of people who even start threads anymore. And unless they have a serious question I can help with, I just don't feel ...this is going to sound bad,...... but I honestly don't care. Yup, I said it. I'm sorry, but when people vent about "OMG I can't go to the grocery store/mall/movies ever again because pg bellies are everywhere", I just can't relate to that. I know they have a right to vent, but I can't hug you when pg chicks have every right to go grocery shopping. I just don't even know what to write anymore on most of the threads over there.
I don't want to sound cold, and I do feel emotionally invested in very many of you, mostly who are on this 6+ board.
Is this the next "stage"? Have you guys that have been here awhile feel sort of the same? Or am I a total B!tch ice queen?
Re: I think I've hit the next stage?
BFP #1 07/04/10. EDD 03/14/11. Missed m/c 08/09/10. D&C 09/27/10. }Casey & Jaimie{
TTA for 18 months and then TTC for 12 months
TTA for 7 months
Jan-Mar 2014 - RPL, SHG, karotyping: all results normal
TTC Again May 2014
Progesterone & baby aspirin combo for 5 cycles - All BFN's
SA with DNA fragmentation = Perfect results
Diagnostic cycle monitoring = Polycystic ovaries leading to premature egg release
TTA Oct 2014 - Jan 2015
Jan 2015 - Medicated cycle with timed intercourse
My Blog: The Canadian Housewife PGAL/PAL Welcome My Chart
I PPH you guys. I seriously would lose my mind if this side didn't exist. And I know I haven't even been here that long.
hey look! I think my heart just grew 3 sizes!
I'm going to drink some wine now! XOXO
D&C: 03/08/12 Waited for AF for 146 long days!
Hysteroscopy/D&C on July 10th to fix blocked cervix (DX: Cervical Stenosis)
BFP #2 12/8/12, EDD 08/21/13 Our rainbow arrived 08/24/13!
Can I be part of the ice queen posse too. I very rarely post over on the main board. ((hugs)) I am sorry you have made it this far.
Diagnosed w/ endometriosis 12/2010 Laproscopic surgery & 6 months of Lupron
BFP 12/17/2011,EDD 8/23/12,ectopic discovered 12/29/11 at 6 weeks recieved methotrexate
Dec '12 HSG & ultrasound showed abnormalities & more endo. Laproscopic surgery in January '13 showed significant damage & scar tissue from Endo. IVF is our best shot to concieve our rainbow.
June '13 Decided to go the adoption route!
***PGAL/PAL WELCOME***
Add me to the ice queen posse I'm at the point where I roll my eyes at so many posts that I've gotten to where I stop opening them at all.
BFP #2: 8/31/12 EDD: 5/18/13 Chemical pregnancy: 9/4/12
BFP #3: 5/17/13 EDD: 1/24/14 Loss at 5 weeks: 5/29/13
Lots of testing, all clear with the exception of compound heterozygous for the MTHFR mutation.
Cycle 1: Femara, trigger shot, Bravelle added due to slow response = BFN
Cycle 2: Cancelled due to two cysts =(
Cycle 3: Femara, Bravelle, trigger shot and IUI = BFP then loss #3
Cycle 4: Femara, Follistim, trigger shot and IUI = BFP! EDD: 6/7/14
PGAL/PAL welcome
TTC started Oct '10
Me: AMA w/RSD, atypical PCOS w/IR, LPD and High Prolactin. Controlled HP post-loss.
DH: Low-T and borderline morph
18 cycles, 3 medicated w/RE to get to a BFP!
EDD 9/7/12, Saw HB @7w3d,missed m/c 1/30 @8w3d, d&c 2/8
11 AL cycles, 9 medicated/IUI cycles. All BFFN!
Moving forward with IVF
BFP#2 our little cycle break surprise on AL cycle 12! EDD 10/27/13
Beta #1: 41 Beta #2: 398; perfect u/s 3/11 hb @133bpm
u/s 3/25 one perfect hb @183 bpm, adjusted EDD 10/23/13
MaterniT21 and carrier screens normal. It's a girl!!!
Severe Pre-E, HFpEF, PE, AMA & IF= OAD
All IF/AL Welcome!
I've been there for a while, and I have waves of when I'll respond to those posts or not. I'm happy in my little charting niche.
I'm still at the stage where I need to read anything and everything to explain what's going on, but I've moved onto other sources for that - my RE ordered me to stop, but I can't help myself.
I still play a mental game of "whack-a-preggo" when I walk down the street, though it's getting harder to play now that winter coats are coming on.
BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
Baby Boy Born 8/22/13
BFP#1 April 12, 2011, EDD December 24, 2011, strong heart beat at 7w3d, d&c at 10w6d
BFP#2 Oct 24, 2011, natural miscarriage, EDD unknown
After RPL testing my losses and subsequent infertility are considered unexplained.
Cycle #22: Femara, TI, and progesterone = BFP!!
BFP#3 Dec 21, 2012. Beta #1 @14dpo = 134, progesterone 67.8. Beta #2 @ 17dpo = 664! Team green, EDD 9/1/13, healthy baby boy born 9/12/13!
My chart.
Congratulations to the fabulous KGS2003! Her sweet boys are here! Grow boys grow!!!
Love it!
D&C: 03/08/12 Waited for AF for 146 long days!
Hysteroscopy/D&C on July 10th to fix blocked cervix (DX: Cervical Stenosis)
BFP #2 12/8/12, EDD 08/21/13 Our rainbow arrived 08/24/13!
I have a fully devised (yet utterly sporadic) point system that I dole out. If I can get to work under 10 points, it's a good day. I should note that utterly cute preggos (yes, they deserve that term) are on par with smoking prena-bitches --- one insights pure jealousy and the other insights absolute rage - 5 points.
BFP#1 10/1/2011. Our perfect little girl, Her heart stopped @ 12w1d. D&E 11/23/11
BFP#2 3/13/12 Weird CP/Possible EP @ 6w0d
BFP#3 5/28/12 CP @ 5w0d
BFP/WTF#4 10/26/12 CP
BFP#5 12/10/12 EDD 8/23/2013
Baby Boy Born 8/22/13