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Introduction (struggling, bad day)

MsAmandaPantsMsAmandaPants member
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Warning: mention of MC ahead

 

Hi everyone,

I'm hoping to join your community so wanted to take a moment to introduce myself and say hi. I'm 35 (hoping 35 and a few months is enough to qualify me for this board :) ) and my fiance and I have been trying to conceive for about 10 months.

We got very lucky and I got pregnant immediately during our first month of trying back in  February of this year. Unfortunately, that pregnancy ended in a missed miscarriage.  The doctor thinks the pregnancy ended around 6 weeks, but it was not discovered until the 7-8 week. I waited for 2.5 weeks to miscarry naturally (a very, very dark time), but ultimately had to have a manual vacuum aspiration. After the procedure it took months for my period to return and we've been trying again since July with no luck.  

(TMI ahead) My cycles have always been like clockwork, no spotting, every 28 days, until recently, that is. Now all the sudden, the last three months I've been spotting with dark brown string discharge exactly one week before my period is due and spot right through until my period starts right on time. We've ruled out fibroids, cysts, polyps, etc, via ultrasound so my gynecologist is leaning towards luteal phase defect (but why now? this never ever happened before a few months ago!). I'm seeing a RE next week to talk about more tests and solutions. There is also a small chance I'm dealing with endo. Not sure. It seems strange to me that all this started after the MC and after the procedure and I never had anything like it before. 

Today's been a particularly rough day because it is my original due date. I was supposed to be holding my baby today, but instead I had to go get a transvaginal ultrasound. I kind of fell apart in the stirrups because it took me back to the day when I found out the pregnancy was not viable and, given the significance of the day, it was all too overwhelming. Blah. The nurse probably thinks I am a nut. It was probably not the best scheduling on my part.  :/

I'm also generally having that panicked "omg, I've waited too long" fear that I'm sure many of you know of and all this testing is making me feel a hundred years old, scared, frustrated, and totally depressed. I'm trying to stay positive, but I'm not doing the best job.

So, anyway, that is all about me (probably TMI, actually). Thanks for reading! I look forward to getting to know you guys.

Mandy 

 

Me: 36 yo, TTC #1 since Feb. 2012
BFP #1, 3/12, EDD 11/9/12, MMC 3/27/12, D&C 4/10/12

BFP #2: 11/16/12, EDD 7/25/13, MMC 12/5/12, D&C 12/6/12, Complete molar pregnancy confirmed 2/9/13, benched for 6 months until  August 2013

IUI #1, 8/16/13 Femara + Menopur, 3 mature follicles, BFN
IUI #2 (back-to-back, 9/12/13 and 9/13/13) Femara + Menopur, four mature follicles, BFFN
IUI #3, 10/8/13 Femara + Menopur, six mature follicles, BFN

BFP #3, 12/9/2013, while on treatment break, EDD: 8/22/2014  Please stick and grow, LO!

Additional Dx: hypothyroidism, TgAb positive & anti-TPO positive, POR/DOR (2/2013), and suspected endometriosis

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Re: Introduction (struggling, bad day)

  • Butterflykisses73Butterflykisses73 member

    Welcome to the board Mandy!

    So sorry to hear about the miscarriage, today would be hard.

    No helpful advice on the spotting but I hope the doctor figures something out soon!

     

     

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  • MsAmandaPantsMsAmandaPants member
    Thanks for the welcome ButterflyKisses73!
    Me: 36 yo, TTC #1 since Feb. 2012
    BFP #1, 3/12, EDD 11/9/12, MMC 3/27/12, D&C 4/10/12

    BFP #2: 11/16/12, EDD 7/25/13, MMC 12/5/12, D&C 12/6/12, Complete molar pregnancy confirmed 2/9/13, benched for 6 months until  August 2013

    IUI #1, 8/16/13 Femara + Menopur, 3 mature follicles, BFN
    IUI #2 (back-to-back, 9/12/13 and 9/13/13) Femara + Menopur, four mature follicles, BFFN
    IUI #3, 10/8/13 Femara + Menopur, six mature follicles, BFN

    BFP #3, 12/9/2013, while on treatment break, EDD: 8/22/2014  Please stick and grow, LO!

    Additional Dx: hypothyroidism, TgAb positive & anti-TPO positive, POR/DOR (2/2013), and suspected endometriosis

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  • gscovillegscoville member
    A very heartfelt welcome to you!  I'm so sorry to hear of your loss, and am sending you big cyber hugs (yeah I know, I'm a total stranger, but I'm a huggy person so I'll offer them if you want them!).  Best of luck to you as you move forward!


         

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    Married August 2012. Me: 41  DH: 42 
    Daughter from previous marriage: 20

    BFP 12/19/12: Ectopic discovered at 8 weeks, right tube removed 01/18/13
    June 2013 Testing Results: Progesterone: 31.7, LH: 5, FSH: 5, Estradiol: 161
    Clomid cycles Nov. 2013 and Jan, Feb, and March 2014

    TTC journey over as of the end of October 2014

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  • brooklynesquebrooklynesque member
    Welcome, and sorry for your loss. It's a good idea to see an RE, as you're about to do ... they tend to know a lot more about TTC than ob/gyns, though it does sound like your gyno has a clue. Good luck.
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  • BeckyP005BeckyP005 member

    Hello and welcome.

    I am so sorry about your loss and am I'm sure today is very hard. Big hugs to you :)

    ME:46 MH:44 DE IVF 2014
    Met with RE 4/11. 2 IUI's BFN. DE best option. Switched clinics to do "shared" program. Had to retake all tests and a mamm that put me behind and then on a DE waiting list for 12 months. Picked a donor!! (10/13/13) Got matched. Estimated transfer in December. After 2.5 years of patiently waiting I will finally cycle....can hardly believe it. DE cycle got cancelled. One of her tests came back positive.  Waiting for another donor. Donor picked!! (1/18/14)

    DE IVF #1 (4/26) BFN  DE FET #1 (6/4) BFP! Beta 1=339 Beta 2=852 Beta 3=9957 EDD 2/22/15!!


     

     

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  • MsAmandaPantsMsAmandaPants member
    Thanks so much for the welcome! I look forward to getting to know you guys.
    Me: 36 yo, TTC #1 since Feb. 2012
    BFP #1, 3/12, EDD 11/9/12, MMC 3/27/12, D&C 4/10/12

    BFP #2: 11/16/12, EDD 7/25/13, MMC 12/5/12, D&C 12/6/12, Complete molar pregnancy confirmed 2/9/13, benched for 6 months until  August 2013

    IUI #1, 8/16/13 Femara + Menopur, 3 mature follicles, BFN
    IUI #2 (back-to-back, 9/12/13 and 9/13/13) Femara + Menopur, four mature follicles, BFFN
    IUI #3, 10/8/13 Femara + Menopur, six mature follicles, BFN

    BFP #3, 12/9/2013, while on treatment break, EDD: 8/22/2014  Please stick and grow, LO!

    Additional Dx: hypothyroidism, TgAb positive & anti-TPO positive, POR/DOR (2/2013), and suspected endometriosis

    ******All AL always welcome******
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  • KateLouiseKateLouise member

    Siggy warning.

     

     

     

    Welcome. I'm so sorry for your loss. I hope you get some answers soon from your Dr! The ladies here are great. 

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  • jkzinckjkzinck member
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    I just wanted to say welcome and I am very sorry for your loss. I partially know how you are feeling so I am send hugs your way :
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  • MsAmandaPantsMsAmandaPants member
    KateLouise and jkzinck, you both have beautiful kids!  Thanks for your kind words.
    Me: 36 yo, TTC #1 since Feb. 2012
    BFP #1, 3/12, EDD 11/9/12, MMC 3/27/12, D&C 4/10/12

    BFP #2: 11/16/12, EDD 7/25/13, MMC 12/5/12, D&C 12/6/12, Complete molar pregnancy confirmed 2/9/13, benched for 6 months until  August 2013

    IUI #1, 8/16/13 Femara + Menopur, 3 mature follicles, BFN
    IUI #2 (back-to-back, 9/12/13 and 9/13/13) Femara + Menopur, four mature follicles, BFFN
    IUI #3, 10/8/13 Femara + Menopur, six mature follicles, BFN

    BFP #3, 12/9/2013, while on treatment break, EDD: 8/22/2014  Please stick and grow, LO!

    Additional Dx: hypothyroidism, TgAb positive & anti-TPO positive, POR/DOR (2/2013), and suspected endometriosis

    ******All AL always welcome******
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  • tampabayRNtampabayRN member
    First off, I am so sorry about your loss!  Secondly, welcome and I hope you stay here is short and sweet!
    Photobucket Me:36 DH: 34 TTC since 02/2012, not preventing since 2010. Me: testing came back good. DH: dx: MIF low count/motility. RE recommends IVF with ICSI. Update: DH just diagnosed with severe Crohn's disease, so any IF treatment is on hold :(
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  • kjmitlyngkjmitlyng member
    Welcome, Mandy. I'm also 35 and my husband and I have been trying for 7 months with no luck so far. I'm so very sorry about your miscarriage and your appt today. It made me tear up reading it. I don't have much input about the discharge but it sounds like you're getting the care you need. This is a great board, so many helpful and knowledgable ladies. Do something special for yourself this weekend and take care of yourself. Hugs!
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  • MarylandWedMarylandWed member
    Welcome. I hope your stay is short.
    Me:39 Dx LPD, Fibroid, AMA and all that goes with that. H:37 Dx low motility and low morphology. TTC since 3/12. Clomid 8/12 and 9/12: BFN. 11/12 on a break for Myomectomy sched. 11/26. Resume TTC early 2013.
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  • MsAmandaPantsMsAmandaPants member
    Thanks!
    Me: 36 yo, TTC #1 since Feb. 2012
    BFP #1, 3/12, EDD 11/9/12, MMC 3/27/12, D&C 4/10/12

    BFP #2: 11/16/12, EDD 7/25/13, MMC 12/5/12, D&C 12/6/12, Complete molar pregnancy confirmed 2/9/13, benched for 6 months until  August 2013

    IUI #1, 8/16/13 Femara + Menopur, 3 mature follicles, BFN
    IUI #2 (back-to-back, 9/12/13 and 9/13/13) Femara + Menopur, four mature follicles, BFFN
    IUI #3, 10/8/13 Femara + Menopur, six mature follicles, BFN

    BFP #3, 12/9/2013, while on treatment break, EDD: 8/22/2014  Please stick and grow, LO!

    Additional Dx: hypothyroidism, TgAb positive & anti-TPO positive, POR/DOR (2/2013), and suspected endometriosis

    ******All AL always welcome******
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  • HeathernStevenHeathernSteven member
    Oh how sad! I am sorry to hear of your loss, but welcome! Hope your stay is short!

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    Me: 41 DH: 46. We are TTC our 1st, started July '11,
    3 cycles clomid with Ob,
    1 cycle Tamoxifen with Ob,
    Diagnosed PCOS 11/5/12
    clomid, trigger & timed bd 12/12 BFN
    1st clomid IUI 1/4/13 BFN.
    2nd clomid IUI 2/13 cancelled didn't respond to clomid.
    3/15/13 scheduled laparoscopy & on bcp.

    May 10 IUI from injectibles - BFN 

    May 22 done with interventions it will either happen or it won't. 

    February 2014 No longer actively trying, but not preventing. 

    SURPISE BFP 4/2/2015!!!!!!!!!!

    Miscarriage 4/23/15

     

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  • annaliselannalisel member

    Welcome to the board. 

    You have a lot going on right now. It would make anyone feel panicky, no matter their age. It's quite possible you're just fine and 35 isn't really that old. The RE will show you graphs about how much younger and more fertile you are from 35-37 than 38-40 or older :-) 

    I'm sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself. 

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  • MsAmandaPantsMsAmandaPants member
    imageannalisel:

    Welcome to the board. 

    You have a lot going on right now. It would make anyone feel panicky, no matter their age. It's quite possible you're just fine and 35 isn't really that old. The RE will show you graphs about how much younger and more fertile you are from 35-37 than 38-40 or older :-) 

    I'm sorry for your loss. Take care of yourself. 

     

    Thanks so much, Annalise! I welcome any charts that make me feel relatively young. This process is making me feel ancient at the ripe old age of 35. 

    Me: 36 yo, TTC #1 since Feb. 2012
    BFP #1, 3/12, EDD 11/9/12, MMC 3/27/12, D&C 4/10/12

    BFP #2: 11/16/12, EDD 7/25/13, MMC 12/5/12, D&C 12/6/12, Complete molar pregnancy confirmed 2/9/13, benched for 6 months until  August 2013

    IUI #1, 8/16/13 Femara + Menopur, 3 mature follicles, BFN
    IUI #2 (back-to-back, 9/12/13 and 9/13/13) Femara + Menopur, four mature follicles, BFFN
    IUI #3, 10/8/13 Femara + Menopur, six mature follicles, BFN

    BFP #3, 12/9/2013, while on treatment break, EDD: 8/22/2014  Please stick and grow, LO!

    Additional Dx: hypothyroidism, TgAb positive & anti-TPO positive, POR/DOR (2/2013), and suspected endometriosis

    ******All AL always welcome******
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