I cannot believe this is real.

femmepink · November 2012

I feel super scared about even writing this post. It's so unbelievable to me right now, but I really need to get this out, and you ladies will be the first to hear.

I just got a BFP! A mother.flucking.BFP!

So, if you saw my earlier post in the 2WW thread, I tested this morning at 10dpo with FMU. BFN. I went to my doctors appointment, got my flu shot, came home, did some chores and for some reason, decided to torture myself further so I peed again using a small 2.5 mm cheapie, and I could've swore I saw the faintest, almost shadow-like mark...not even a line. So, I figured okay, I'll hold my pee and test in another 2-3 hours, but I fully was prepared for that to just be my eyes playing tricks on me. Well, I dipped a wider, ept strip and it looked like a BFN to me. Then I dipped a Clearblue digital that reads "pregnant/not pregnant". It read "pregnant". I said "fvuck off" out loud. I dipped another, it read, "pregnant" again. So, I guess that's where we stand. I'm going to trust those two tests even though I actually CANNOT believe this.

DH isn't home from work yet. He should be home in about 30 minutes. I already got the onesie ready that I ordered months ago that says "Daddy's fishing buddy", and wrapped it up. I'm so scared to tell him and get him all excited and then find out the tests were faulty or something. Fuvck, see? I still am not letting myself believe it!

Details: I've been around lurking since my engagement back in 2011. I started charting in October 2011 and learned my cycles inside out, so I'd be ready when we wanted to start TTC. I started posting on here after my wedding in March, but didn't start TTC until last month. So, this is our first cycle trying.

I didn't temp this month since I had a years worth of charts to guide me toward when a possible ovulation day would be. I did use OPKs. Assuming I ovulated on the day AFTER my positive OPK, we had sex on O-3 and O and I'm 10 DPO.

Honestly, I thank you ladies. If it wasn't for this board and it's wealth of information I know for a fact I would not be writing this post. I love the attitude, I love the knowledge, and I love the straight-forward honesty. I wish the best for you all, especially the few ladies I've grown to know during my time here. I will be lurking and FX for your BFPs!