3T Weekly Check In

sarah_e87

Hi ladies! Sorry the weekly check in hasn't happened in a while. Life has been crazy for me over the last couple of months. I'm posting from my phone, so this will kind of take the informal approach that has been happening. So ladies, let's hear the updates.

If you would like to be added, please provide

1. Name, if you wish to share
2. When you started TTC
3. Diagnosis, if you have one
4. Treatments/Procedures you've done

QOTW: When you feel like giving up, where do you find the strength to keep going?

MonroesMisfit

Right now I'm just waiting for CD 1 to start our first IUI. Finally paid down the credit cards and doctor bills so now we have a new game plan. I find strength in my husband...he's the strong one of the two of us and even though he may be breaking down inside over our troubles having a baby he never let's me see that and he is always the one with encouraging words when I have my less than pretty days.

xladybassx

We've been TTC since June 2011. I was diagnosed with PCOS and DH has lowish motility at 23. I've had all the regular tests...bw, HSG, a billion ultrasounds. We tried clomid/ovidrel/TI for 3 cycles, and I am now in the 2ww of my first IUI cycle.

QOTW: I think about my aunt who lost her battle with brain cancer a few years ago. She had only a year and a half from diagnosis to when she passed. Throughout her battle she was incredibly positive, strong, and never gave up. Although we were not extremely close because she lived on the other side of the country, her strength continues to be an inspiration to me. Thinking about my aunt's struggle, how she smiled in the face of defeat...it makes me feel guilty for ever complaining about, or wanting to give up TTC.

lauriemel

Started TTC in August of 2011.  I have hypothyroidism, DH has low morphology (3%)

I am currently 4DPIUI in our first IUI cycle.  Crossing everything that it works on the first time, but knowing that our odds are not great.

DH and I have agreed to do 3 IUIs and 1 IVF.  If that doesn't work for us, we will stop.  In some ways, having an end date helps me cope.  As in, I'll either be pregnant or done with this nonsense by summer.  And we've decided if it doesn't work for us, we're going on some sort of awesome vacation to help us press the reset button on our lives.  Whether we will be able (emotionally) to stick with that plan when it comes down to it?  That's another story.

Ruger04

Got my BFN this AM waiting for AF to come now. We are moving forward to IUI and Clomid this month. This will be our first IUI and I'm nervous but so excited that we have a plan. 

 

Good luck everyone!!!

 

Jay 

pgermain11

We started TTC in March 2012, got IUD out in January 2012. My dx is Oligoovulation and Low AMH. This is my first medicated cycle with Clomid. I just triggered yesterday morning and I'm going in for a post-coital this morning to rule out any cm issues. We are doing 2 (maybe 3) months of Clomid and then moving on to IUI. 

I try to stay focused on one cycle at a time and not jump ahead. This really helps me stay peaceful. When I get down about having such crap egg reserve for my age though, I cry. It always makes me feel better to release that negative energy and then I move on by talking with MH or doing something I love.

 

rox825

Hi.  I stopped BC in May or June 2011, H and I started TTC in Sept 2011.  All of our diagnostic tests came back normal, but I have irregular cycles and while I was charting I had a short LP in about 1/3 of my cycles.  My RE said that during my longer cycles the quality of ovulation is poor, so although he didn't use the exact term "weak ovulation" I assume that's my diagnosis.

So, my update:  this was our first clomid + ovidrel + TI cycle and I'm pretty sure it's a BFN, I tested this morning (12dpo) and it was negative.  I'll test again at 14dpo just in case, but I think we'll be moving on to our 2nd medicated cycle shortly.  I had my first official TTTC meltdown yesterday when I got home after spending the weekend staying with an out-of-town friend and her awesome, squishy, adorable 9 month old, so that was fun.  But I'm glad I got it out of my system. 

What keeps me going... thinking about a good friend who had 3 losses before she ended up having success with IVF 2.  What H and I are going through pales in comparison to her struggles, so I figure if she could make it through, so can I.

Mochadoodle

DH and I have been TTC since June 2011. 

SA = Normal

I'm on my second cycle of Clomid 50mg.

Honestly, I've never felt like giving up. How can I give up on something that I can't go a day without thinking about?

jschwind22

Hi ladies!

It looks like IUI# 2 is a fail.  I'm waiting for AF to get here (hopefully today) so that we can try to get IVF approved through our insurance in time for my clinic's 12/6/12 cycle date before we lose all IF coverage at the end of the year.  Commence anxiety.

QOTW: I tend to always be making plans in my head for if things don't work so that I have something to look forward to.

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asilwhite

Hi ladies. TTC since May 2011 with MFI. 

We've had 3 failed IUI cycles and are currently in our first IVF cycle. I'm just starting my last week of BCPs (woo hoo) and get my fun box of meds tomorrow. Eeek this is really happening!

QOTW: I haven't gotten to the point of giving up yet. I've been very discouraged before and think nothing is going to work for me, but I haven't given up yet. Talk to me when I have a couple failed IVFs under my belt and see what I say then. I just know I'm supposed to be a mom and I don't think I can give up until I'm holding a baby in my arms, but we'll see what I say if in the future if we're still childless.

MJ14323

I'm MJ.  We started TTC in November 2010, so Happy 2 Year TTC Anniversary to us...not.  Unexplained IF...but had a Lap in July that showed Stage 2 Endo that was removed.  Treatments/Procedures are in siggy.  Just had beta this morning for IUI #3, but it will be negative since I POAS over the weekend.  I find my strength in my DH.  Without him, I wouldn't be able to get through anything.

BlueEyedDreamer

We're benched due to a cyst this month. I'm trying to use this time to not stress about IF, but I just feel even more impatient and annoyed than usual.

We're still waiting to schedule a "what's next" appointment. When we tried to schedule it at the beginning of my cycle, he next available my RE had was December 3 - WTF?? They just called this morning to see if we wanted to take an opening that popped up for tomorrow at 9AM, but DH has a meeting with people who have come in from out of state, and I have a presentation to give - it's just too late for either of us to cancel.

I feel like my RE's office is overloaded with patients. But my doctors are seriously the best around. So it's sort of a give-and-take.

RmJohns92

Hi lovely ladies,

 TTC since April 2011 with MFI and Stage 1 endo.

        We had 2 failed IUI cycle and 2 cancelled ccyles. We are currently in our 2nd week of BC for our IVF cycle. We have our IVF class next Tuesday. Eeeek can't believe it's really happening soon.

 

QOTW: I haven't given up yet. I don't plan to give up any time soon. Talk to me after a few IVF's under my belt and we will see.

Hugs and good luck to everyone cycling right now.

pgermain11

jschwind22:

Hi ladies!

It looks like IUI# 2 is a fail.  I'm waiting for AF to get here (hopefully today) so that we can try to get IVF approved through our insurance in time for my clinic's 12/6/12 cycle date before we lose all IF coverage at the end of the year.  Commence anxiety.

QOTW: I tend to always be making plans in my head for if things don't work so that I have something to look forward to.

Sorry jschwind Hope the insurance approves the IVF so you can get things rolling. 

Smootiepie

Haven't checked in recently, mostly do to work.  We're about a month out from knowing whether or not DH's numbers have improved post-varicocelectomy.  The wait is killing me!

megs3084

1. Meg

2. Jan 2011

3.Unexplained IF, RE has hinted at an egg quality problem, but no official DX yet

4. 4 rounds of clomid-3 of which were IUIs-BFNs, HSG, countless U/S, CD3/21 labwork, 1 round of IVF-BFN with no embryos to freeze.  Presently on BCPs for IVF #2 in Dec.

I have a pinterest board that helps when things get rough.  it's all motivational sayings & such.  The support from my DH & friends/family is great too.  I just remind myself that no matter how bad the situation sucks, not having children sucks more.  Dont get me wrong, I allow myself time to cry & such, but I have to keep going or else it'll swallow me whole.  

BlueEyedDreamer

jschwind22:

It looks like IUI# 2 is a fail.  I'm waiting for AF to get here (hopefully today) so that we can try to get IVF approved through our insurance in time for my clinic's 12/6/12 cycle date before we lose all IF coverage at the end of the year.  Commence anxiety.

I'm so sorry, hon. {{hugs}} I hope that the timing works out for you so that you can have coverage and move on to IVF!

Enchanted616

Hi!  I would love to be included. My name is Breanna. I went off BC in June 2010 but didn't start charting until July 2011.  We dont have an official dx yet, but MH's SA showed no sperm found in his sample.  We have our first appointment a week from tomorrow, and we are both getting really nervous but excited for some answers.

QOTW: When you feel like giving up, where do you find the strength to keep going?

I try to remember how lucky we are in so many other ways.  I think of how amazing of a dad MH will be.  I try to remember that our child (and we will have one someday, no matter how we get there) will be so worth all these hard times.

Enchanted616

jschwind22:

It looks like IUI# 2 is a fail.  I'm waiting for AF to get here (hopefully today) so that we can try to get IVF approved through our insurance in time for my clinic's 12/6/12 cycle date before we lose all IF coverage at the end of the year.  Commence anxiety.

I'm so sorry. ::big hugs::

mkwgymnast

Hello! We've been trying since Dec. 2011 & have been diagnosed with PCOS. I had a monitoring appt yesterday and another on tues. Hopefully I'll make it to the TWW for the first time!!! I've felt like giving up many times but I know I want to be a mother so there is no way I'm letting myself give up!

katib77

Just moving along in my break, but winter is soon upon us so January and IUI#4 can't be too far behind. Right??

QOTW:  PP said it for me - having an end in mind helps.  Since we will do IUI#4, then one IVF (and if any FET that we can afford) and then that's the end. It's so much easier to keep going knowing that no matter what, the crazy train is coming towards an end.  And for those of you that can't imagine that being a peaceful feeling, trust me - after three and a half years and having seen an RE since June 2010 there is really only so much of your life you can devote to it. And for me that end will come within the next year.  I can't explain how much peace came over me this summer when I realized that.  It's helped tremendously.   It's like if you were running a race, you get energy realizing you only have a little bit left until the finish line and you give it all you've got.  If I was being chased and didn't know if I'd ever get to stop running I'd just want to give up.

BellaLux

Hi Ladies!

We are on trx break until next year. Started ttc July 2011, dx - blocked tubes in June 2012 and 1 failved IVF in September 2012.

QOTW - Hmm, most times my faith and going to church. But recently, even some days not much helps. I just try to take it one day at a time...and sometimes one hour at a time.

deelopi9

1. Diane - deelopi9
   
2. October 2010 - cycle # 24
   
3. Luteal Phase Defect due to low progesterone and weak Ovulation
   
4. 2 Rounds of Clomid 50mg/HCG shot - IUI #1 was scheduled for last Friday, however, we are TTA until we get counseling for other issues
   

QOTW: When I feel like giving up I look at my wedding pictures and remember all of the hopes and dreams we committed to that day. Regardless of the miracle we both want at the end of the day as long as I have my DH by my side that's all that matters.

twistsandturnsto2

Hi Ladies!
Sarah, I hope all is well with you.

Well, after my BFN yesterday it looks like we are on our way to IVF. I am waiting for a call back from my clinics coordinator to see if we are able to cycle before the end of the year! The lab at my clinic closes for two weeks in December, so hopefully we can be squeezed in before then!

QOTW: I agree with PP about knowing what the end of this journey will be. Sitting down with DH and coming to an agreement about it was very helpful. I also just try to take it day by day and remember that this is a process, not a guarantee.

JayD00

1. Everyone calls my JD.

2. Have not been preventing since June 2006, seeing RE for over a year.

3. Tubal factor: one tube looked blocked and the other open, irregular cycles, had polyps removed, have fibroids outside of uterus so not a factor

4. clomid 50mg for 3 cycles and timed intercourse. IUI#1 this cycle. Had my follie check today and no cysts and AFC was 26. So looks okay to move forward. Fingers crossed.

QOTW: I have been holding so much in. I really haven't confided in anyone about this. Glad I am able to release from time to time on here. You girls, although you don't know me well, have really helped me through this process.

 

h&h2003

1. Hollie
2. TTC since February 2010
   
3. DX: DH no sperm 
   
4. Treatments/Procedures: Meeting with Fertility Specialist to figure out next step with IUI + donor
   

QOTW: When you feel like giving up, where do you find the strength to keep going?

"I close my eyes and can see our family" 

skinnykate9

Hi ladies.  I'd love to join the weekly check-in.

 

1. Kate

2. We've been TTC since August 2011.  However, I have extremely irregular cycles, so I've only had 7 cycles in  that time.

3. No diagnosis yet.  We just started seeing an RE in October and are working our way through all of the diagnostic testing he wants us to do.  We are thinking I probably have PCOS and MH has low morph.

4. No treatments yet.

QOTW. My strength is in MH and my puppies.  When the four of us are cuddled on the couch, it makes me content with what I have at the moment and not so stressed about what the future holds. 

kristykay123

Update: waiting on AF to move on to IUI #3 with my last round of clomid and injects. She wanted to do just injects but we simply can't afford paying for the medicine and IUI. I started spotting yesterday so hopefully CD1 will be here soon!

QOTW: I usually look at Pinterest and pin quotes like crazy. I also cry a lot and pray. Oh and I download a lot of music.

sarah_e87

Update on me. I've been working 2 full time jobs for the last couple of months, so time has been very limited. I'm still on a break and will be until my divorce is final. I'm hoping to be able to move forward with treatment by july-ish. I'm waiting to hear from HR to find out what IF coverage I have, if any, but it's looking like I will have something.

Twinkie0612

We started TTC in August 2011.  Right now all of our tests have came back normal, except for my 7 DPO blood work which showed low progesterone.   We have done one round of clomid + IUI with my OB/Gyn (monitored, of course), which looks like a bust since I got a BFN today at 16 DPIUI.  I plan on switching to a RE once this cycle is officially over, so we will probably be trying on our own for the next few cycles.

QOTW:  My husband has definitely been my rock the last few months.  I've had a hard time dealing with our IF diagnosis and the fact that we are 100% OOP for testing and treatment.  He has been the one to remain confident and cheer me up when I am in an IF funk.

monkandnut

Hi there-

We started TTC in February of 2011. (when I look back at that I laugh thinking about the first month that we didn't use protection and I thought- "Well- this is it- looks like we are getting pregnant this month" hahahahah- little did I know....)

We have no diagnosis- only "unexplained infertility".

We did (2) natural IUI cycles, one back-to-back with our OBGYN. Just referred to an RE and are doing our injection training today! Waiting to start my period (any minute now) so we can look for Day 3 to get this party started for our first medicated IUI with injectables.

I find the strength through my husband- no question. He is so convinced that everything is going to work out, it helps me to remain positive. But- more importantly- he lets me throw a fit once a month when AF comes.

herecomesthesun

Just call me HCTS or Sunny :-)March 6 2011 ~18 cyclesUnexplained IF, borderline FSH and Progesterone but nothing that concerns the doc. All the blood work, HSG, just finished first cycle Clomid + trigger + TI + Endometrin, got the go ahead for cycle 2 of the same since I responded well but still got the - POAS. Just waiting on AF to arrive.

WhenInRome11

DH and I started TTC March 2012. 

I have PCOS and and autoimmune disorder.

I heard from my RE's office today that all of our test results are in. So, I have an appointment on the 27th to find out our results and to make a plan for our next steps.

Playing with the children at work helps to keep me focused on our goal. I got to snuggle with my boss's 10 week old today. He is such a sweetie pie.

I also do theater which for me is a great way to escape from my world into someone elses. 

Laylarue

Got a BFN this morning and just waiting for AF to show. Next month we will probably do another round of letrozole since we will be traveling too much for an IUI.

When I want to give up I remind myself that I'm not done with this journey yet. We are not done until we are holding our child, biological or not.  

cdale86

We had ER on Friday.  We got 22 eggs, 20 fertilized (15 good ones though?).  We are doing a 5 day transfer on Wednesday because this morning we had 7 excellent embryos.  Hopefully the best ones will reveal themselves over the next 2 days.  

 QOTW:  I definitely find my strength in God.  DH and I pray a lot.  I know we have a bunch of friends/family praying for us too.  I know that God put it on our hearts to have children and I feel like He has guided us in this journey.  I could not make it through this without knowing that He is always there for me and will not give me more than I can handle.  He has his own time for answering prayers.  Of course my husband is amazingly supportive and my complete partner in this process.

futurehuber

DH and I started TTC in Sept 2011.  Our DX is PCOS and looks like MFI as well.  At first we thought it was all bad (low count, motility, morph), but looks like it might only be count.  DH is going to do a 2nd SA and additional BW. 

I'm currently in my 2WW after my first IUIs last Thurs and Fri.  RE said there is a 5% chance it will work due to our counts, so I'm not feeling too hopeful.

Hmm, as for the QOTW, I feel like I am actually out of tears and just numb to all the bad news now.  When we got DH's SA results a couple weeks ago, I didn't cry at all except for a 2 minute little stint when we saw someone having a baby on TV and DH said something sweet like, "Don't worry, that will be us one day."  I guess I find strength from him, friends, family and these boards. And often wine.

Beach_Bum718

We started TTC Nobember 2010...which blows my mind that it's been two years. I remember that December buying a little baby outfit bc I was sure it would happen so quickly...that little outfit is hidden away now. 

We are in the 2WW of our first IUI. I'm trying not to get my hopes up but I know this will be our last shot for this year, unless it happens naturally. DH SA is great except morph is low, all blood work, hysteroscopy, ultrasounds have come back normal for me.

QOTW: Its been so inspiring reading everyone's strengths and positive outlooks. The first year of TTC was awful for me and my DH has been an absolute rock for me! It's also helped to tell more people, we can always use more prayer during the stress and pain of IF. I have to believe that God has a plan and whatever that plan may be I will have the strength to go on.  

MrsCinAZ

Started TTC in September 2011. Well, not actively, but not preventing anything. 

Last month, I was diagnosed with cervical stenosis and found out that my husband has low count & motility. As my husband put it, the troops can't get through the iron curtain.

Our next step is IUI. Planning on December, if everything goes according to plan.

QOTW: My wonderful has been so supportive despite the fact that I have been an emotional basket case... joining me for doctor visits, cooking me dinner, and giving lots of hugs. My girlfriends and family have been awesome too! I've been fairly open with those I'm close to about what's going on. Figured that I'd rather people know and be sensitive than ask me if I'm pregnant yet and risk getting punched in the face... lol

 

beth9409

IUI#2 was a BFN. We are now taking a treatment break while I get settled into my new job.

katekat8721

Hi all. Currently in the 2ww with IUI #3. The cyst is not going away grr. We did natural IUI this month with no meds and will probably continue to do so till February,  as that will be 6 months after hubby started taking clomid.

To be honest I don't know to to keep positive anymore. I am trying to focus on my physical health right now, and emotionally I'm getting a bit numb. I still have hope... I HAVE to... but im not just not really feeling like its gonna work out and im mad at myself for feeling like that because i worry its gonna be a self fulfilling prophecy! Sorry to be a downer