first day back to work

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So I actually started a new job today, I lost my old one because of all the missing work from DD coming early and I had decided to wait as long as we could afford to go back. The new job is decent, and its only part time, but today was so hard! It was made even worse by not being able to call dh and check on Lo, he let his phone go until Monday which was a whole big argument. I was so anxious and just ready to leave because of being away from Lo and no way to check in. Was gone 12 hrs between drive time and actual work, DD dh are both sound asleep right now, and I'm trying very hard not to let my emotions get the best of me and be mad at dh because that over protective nicu mommy part just really wants to kick his butt out of bed since I didn't get to have any updates today! I know its difficult for any mom to go back to work, but I thought you ladies would have a better understanding of how hard it is to have no check ins with a preemie even though she was in dhs more then capable hands.