PgAL Brain in Overdrive

behapy2day

I don't normally write these kinds of posts, but I figured everyone else does from time to time so why not just get it out.

I have got major anxiety about my u/s appt tomorrow. It's literally making my stomach hurt. I'll be 8w5d tomorrow and cannot get past the feeling that we'll go tomorrow and there won't be a HB anymore. I feel like I feel like I have just been holding my breath through this last week, and will be from here on out just waiting for bad news. I hate hate hate that I feel this way. I feel terrible that I don't know how to be positive, and I feel like I am on the edge of totally having a crying meltdown bc I am so afraid to have another loss. I know I sound dramatic, but I'm just so overwhelmed with this feeling of doom.

Please tell me to relax. I wish I could drink wine.

NBBride05

Sending you big HUGS. I wish I could say something to ease your anxiety. But know I will keeping everything crossed that all goes well at your u/s tomorrow and that LO has a nice strong heartbeat! Sending lots of T & Ps your way!

kread8

I'm so sorry you are struggling right now.  It's hard not to get anxious about appointments/etc.  I am keeping everything crossed that you have an excellent appointment tomorrow.  Big (((hugs)))

behapy2day

Thanks ladies. With both my other losses, the babies stopped growing at 8w5d and 9w4d so I feel like I'm going to drive myself crazy in the next week worrying about LO. I feel like it will be a major victory when we get to 10 weeks with a HB!

killian09

((hugs)) I've got everything crossed that you have a great appt tomorrow.  Try to do something fun & distracting tonight!  

kpowers982

Just wanted to let you know how incredibly normal your feelings are and that so many of us here can absolutely relate to how you are feeling...in fact, I go for growth ultrasounds every 4 weeks and I still start panicking about a week ahead!  Such is the nature of PgAL brain.  Hang in there, and wishing you lots of luck for a terrific ultrasound tomorrow!

jbranden12

((hugs)) It happens to the best of us. During first tri I had sonos every two weeks and I was glad because they gave me something to look forward to, but the anxiety would start the afternoon before and I would be crazy nervous until we saw the heartbeat.

Albah

The anticipation to the next ultrasound is so hard!!! My next one isn't till November 5th and I'm getting fidgety. I've even considered getting a doppler just for some piece of mind but then waiver since there is still a chance that I won't find it. Uggh, I completely understand the feeling. Something that I've done is to schedule appointments or ultrasounds for the beginning of the week (like Monday)....mentally it has helped a little. I hope your U/S goes super well!! 

pinktrojanbride120107

I wish I had sage advice, but I'm right there with you! My appointment is on Monday, and I've been bawling like crazy since Monday. I wish we could link arms and go together. Best wishes to you!