Hello ladies

I am in my 5th week now. I miscarried before somewhere between 9 and 11 weeks. I am trying my hardest to stay calm and to enjoy every day without worrying but its so difficult. Today I am less bloated and I cant help but think something might be wrong

What do you do to keep your mind off things? Every little cramp or feeling scares me and I cant even pee without being scared to wipe and see blood. Whats wrong with me

I have a perfect little blessing growing inside me and I cant stop thinking the worst. OH! and my OB won't see me unless im bleeding until I am 8-10 weeks.
Re: pregnant again!!! trying to be excited
TTC since 11/2009; Lap/HSG/Hysteroscopy: 5/2011 (endometriosis - removed; endocervical polyp - removed; high pressure in bilateral tubes - cleared)
BFP #1: 8/4/11; DS1 born sleeping on 11/16/11 at 19w1d
BFP # 2: 5/7/12, EDD 1/10/13, DS2 born 1/4/13
BFP # 3: 11/8/13, EDD 7/17/14, mmc 10wks
BFP # 4: 5/16/14, EDD 1/15/15, praying for our 2nd rainbow baby
I think that we all have those same concerns and fears. It's just hard to enjoy a pregnancy after you've been through a loss. Just try to take it one day at a time, enjoy each little milestone that you pass (good betas, getting to the next week, a good u/s, etc.) and remember "Today I am pregnant and I love my baby." I hope things get easier for you as time passes.
4/26/11 HPT+ 4/28/11 +Blood test! HCG 67 5/24/11 Blighted Ovum.
6/11-11/11 Non ovulatory cycles
12/18/11 HPT+ 12/20/11 +Blood Test HCG 165 12/27/11 Beta test HCG 6411
12/29/11 Beta 11264 1/30/11 Wiggler w/ HB 160+
Grow Baby Grow!!!! Please be our rainbow!
Rainbow Born 8/22, so in love with our little girl!
EDD 1/31/13, MC May 17. EDD 3/31/13, MC July 26. I miss you so much already my angel loves
Married since 2008 with 1 precious furbaby.
Mis-dx with PCOS & Hypothyroidism. New Dx= Hypoandrenia & hormone imbalance
BFP #1 on 3rd round of Clomid (50mg).