I had brown spotting yesterday, tried to tell myself it was okay... But it's gotten a lot heavier, and the midwife, while she can't say I'm miscarrying, doesn't think it sounds good. I'm going for betas today and Thursday, so I guess I'll know by Friday if things are still okay, but I just have no positiveness left in me. I never knew how completely devastated I would feel. I ended up having to tell my parents yesterday because they are visiting and I started crying. Nothing like, "I'm pregnant, but don't get excited, because I'm bleeding and might be miscarrying."
BFP #1 8/14/10, DS born 4/30/11
BFP #2 9/30/12, M/C 10/23/12
BFP #3 12/16/12, CP 12/20/12
BFP #4 1/20/13, DD born 10/9/13
Re: Not Looking Good
I am sorry your going through this! T's and P's for you!
DS1 2-26-07
#4 Due May 2015
IT'S A BOY
lots of
to my TBBFF Sothernpeach80 - BABY
ETHAN IS HERE! 02.04.13 
TTC #1 since Jan 2012
BFP #1 07/27/12 - EDD 04/07/13; C/P on 07/31/12
BFP #2 10/11/12 - EDD 06/24/13; Blighted Ovum; D&C 11/30/12
BFP #3 03/10/13 - EDD 11/17/13 - PLEASE BE OUR TAKE HOME BABY!
Beta #1 - 95.8 (12DPO); Beta #2 - 502 (15DPO); Beta #3 - 2003 (18DPO)
First U/S showed one beautiful baby measuring 7w1d with a HR of 148!!! Second U/S showed baby measuring 9w0d with a HR of 173!!!
My Ugly BFP Chart
“I know God won't give me anything I can't handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much." -Mother Teresa
BFP #1: 6.26.12 EDD: 2.11.13 missed m/c: 7.31.12 @ 12 weeks
BFP #2: 10.1.12 EDD: 6.11.13 Born 6.13.13
TTC#2: BFP: 8-23-15 MMC: 10-29-15
DD 2: 9-15-16
DD 3: 9-16-17
CP: 01/2011 | MMC: 01/2012 | MMC: 10/2012 | DS: 11/2013 | MMC: 11/2014 | DD: 01/2016
BFP: 06/2018 - EDD: 02/09/2019
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TTC Baby Rob #1 05/07, BFP 06/07, EDD 02/22/08, Baby Jackaroo born via c-section after 22 hours of labor on 02/27/08
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TTC Baby Rob #2 06/11 BFP 11/06/11 EDD 07/16/12 Natural M/C 11/25/11 @ 6w3d
Baby Rob #2 (Sloane), in our hearts always.
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Here comes Baby Rob #3
BFP on Cycle 17 09/27/12. EDD 06/04/12! Please Stick Baby! A/S 01/22/13 Baby looking great. Officially TEAM BLUE! Jack is getting a Baby Brother! RCS scheduled for 05/29/13. William Daryll born at 9:59am on 05/29/13. Left ovary and tube removed due to peach sized tumor found during RCS. Pathology came back benign!
my read shelf:
M/C 7/8/12
Perfect baby boy born 7/8/13
BFP 8/20/14 EDD 4/27/15 It's a GIRL!!
TTC since August 2011

DX PCOS and annovulatory
1/12 Clomid (3 rounds total and no response)
DH SA = normal
6/12 Femara (2 rounds)no response
8/12 1st round Gonal F and 2 follies = BFN
9/12 2nd round injects and 3 follies = BFP!
10/15 11dpo beta#1 = 162 10/17 beta #2 = 471 1st U/S: Quads!!!
1/13 Baby A ruptured membranes, our angels Jaxon, Jayse, Emersyn, and Ellee were born @ 17 weeks
5/13 Gonal F with 1 follie - BFP! EDD - 2/11/14
BFP 5/21/10, Missed m/c 7/5/10 at 11w3d (baby measured 7wks), D&C 7/7/10
Aug/Sept 2010 - CD3&10 b/w & u/s, genetic testing, SA, HSG, & Lap/Hyst to remove septum
12/09/10 BFP -- 7/05/11 DS born at 33w5d. Came home after 23d in NICU at 37w0d
June 2012 - TTC #2! -- 10/05/12 BFP -- 5/23/13 DS2 born at 37w1d! Yay full term!
Surprise BFP 6/25/14 LO#3 due Feb2015!
I am so, so sorry that you are going through this. There is no pain like the pain of losing a child. Sending you all my love, thoughts, and prayers. *huge hugs* T&Ps that everything is okay, but if you end up needing them, the women on the mc/pl board was a great sense of strength and support for me when I had my loss.
I am so sorry you have to have this on your mind all week. I really hope everything is okay.
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This. Hang in there and take good care of yourself. Hopefully your blood work will have encouraging numbers.