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Intro. Will you have me here?

NJMom050911NJMom050911 member
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Hello ladies, I feel sort of in limbo and I hope that I can spend some time here. I post on the TTCAL board but since many of those ladies don't have any children sometimes I wonder if I hurt their feelings since I already have one. Here I feel like you will understand my want for a sibling for DS.

Now my story. We started trying for #2 when DS was 4 months old. 8 months later in May 2012 I got my BFP. Beyond happy. The happiness was short lived as first my betas were considered too low, than too high and finally the ultrasound showed a slow heartbeat and fetal demise the week after. I went ahead with the d&c that my doctor said I needed.

Long story short, I am almost 4 months out and I have not had AF. I am cycling but not bleeding. I have a sonohystogram scheduled for 11/06. While I was trying to get AF back I switched OBs since my old one wasn't too concerned about my lack of period, even after Provera failed and an ultrasound confirmed ovulation. I had to provide my records to my new OB and that is when I found out that at my third and last ultrasound, the one that confirmed the fetal demise, there was a second sack that said "possible BO?". I was never told and I feel robbed that I didn't give that baby a chance. I wish I knew and I would have waited another week before going ahead with the d&c, since that second sack wasn't visible on the two ultrasounds prior to this one.

Anyway. I'm still raw and hurt and bitter. And as much as I am hoping for this to be an easy fix all signs point to something being wrong. My thyroid and the other blood work that the new doctor ordered came back within normal range.

So I hope you will have me here.

 

Logan Alexander born May 9th 2011. He has stolen my heart forever. Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker BFP #2 05/24/12 EDD 01/31/13 D&C 06/26/12 Missing you. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Diagnosed with Ashermans 11/06/12 Surgery 01/18/13, Cleared for TTC 03/01/13 BFP 03/26/13 IT'S A BOY! Please Be Our Rainbow! BabyFruit Ticker
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  • SigmundsGirlSigmundsGirl

    I am so sorry for your loss and the experience you had with your first Ob. This is definitely the right board for you. May of us have had losses and understand wanting another child, but having difficulty getting or staying pregnant.

    Welcome to the board. I hope your stay here is short. 

    Dx: PCOS and short luteal phase
    18 cycles (3 with our RE) - Metformin + Clomid + HCG booster did the trick!
    BFP #1 6/22/09 EDD: 3/2/10 DS born: 3/8/10

    TTC #2 since Dec 2011
    BFP #2 7/8/12 EDD: 3/18/12 M/C @ 9w1d: 8/16/12

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  • kofmkgkofmkg member
    Welcome!  I'm sorry for the reasons you have to join us, but I'm hoping that you'll get to graduate from this board quickly.  You'll find a lot of great support here.

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  • NJMom050911NJMom050911 member
    Thank you for your welcome.
    Logan Alexander born May 9th 2011. He has stolen my heart forever. Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker BFP #2 05/24/12 EDD 01/31/13 D&C 06/26/12 Missing you. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Diagnosed with Ashermans 11/06/12 Surgery 01/18/13, Cleared for TTC 03/01/13 BFP 03/26/13 IT'S A BOY! Please Be Our Rainbow! BabyFruit Ticker
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  • efhoping2010efhoping2010 member
    Welcome!  I am sorry for your losses.  Everyone is very friendly and supportive here.  I hope you find success soon!!!
    H: 34 dx Azoospermia due to CBAVD from CF  
    ME: 39 IS FINE!!!  DOR and poor AMH/FSH/LH
    IVF/ICSI/PESA #1 Beta 1 373 Beta 2 1783 BOY/GIRL TWINS!! Born April 2010!!
    Natural FET 5/26/12 2 blasts Beta 1 207 Beta 2 513 Beta 3 1377 U/S 6/28 Pregnancy not viable d & c scheduled :( 
    IVF/ICSI/PESA #2 ER 11/15/12 Nothing to transfer :( 
    IVF/ICSI #3 April 2013 MDLF 3dt of 3 embryos, chemical :(  
    IVF #4/ICSI/MESA/CCS/FET EPP April 2015
    ODWU CCRM with Dr. Sch COMPLETE!!!! Put on acai supplement they are studying for DOR and embryo quality.
    DAY 3 Labs Drawn 2/26 put on vitamin D and calcium supplements
    Regroup and Protocol Reveal 3/04 "Bazooka Protocol" EPP with MDLF "Protocol 6 with patches"
    ER/MESA 4/10 ER 9 eggs retrieved MESA success found live swimmers :)
    Fertilization Report 6 eggs mature and ICSI'd 4 eggs fertilized normally
    Day 6 Report to Blast for CCS 4/16: 2 DAY 5 BLASTS BIOPSIED FOR CCS a 4AB and a 3AB!!!!
    CCS Results BOTH BLASTS CCS NORMAL!!!!!!  call on 4/24
    Regroup call to discuss CCS results and FET call on 5/20
    FET prep: CD 1 6/08 CD 3 Start BCP 6/10, HSG 6/12 Lupron Start 10 iu 6/17 End BCP 6/21 CD 1 6/23!!!
    Start vivelle patches 6/25 change e/o/d reduce Lupron to 5iu 6/25 Blood Draw 7/01, 7/08, 7/15, 7/19
    Increase vivelle patches 7/03 2 change e/o/d and 7/05 change e/o/d 3 and 7/07 4 change e/o/d add vaginal estrace 2x a day
    Lining Check/Blood Draw 7/08 and 7/15 End Lupron 7/18  Start PIO 1ml daily 7/18  Blood  Draw 7/19
    Flight to clinic 7/22
    FET 2 CCS BLASTS :):)  7/23 :):) YES YES both thawed and both fully expanded :):)
    7/26 :):) 3dp5dt PM very very faint positive FRER
    7/27: 4dp5dt Neg Digi AM but very very faint positive FRER PM POSITIVE DIGI CLEARBLUE PREGNANT 1-2 :):) 
    7/31:8dp5dt AM POSITIVE DIGI CLEARBLUE PREGNANT 2-3!!!! :):) 
    Beta 1 8/01= 408!!!!!!!!!! at 9dp5dt FET
    Beta 2 8/03 = 1014!!!!!!!!!! at 11dp5dt FET
    8/05/2015 AM POSITIVE DIGI CLEARBLUE PREGNANT 3+!!!! :):) 
    First Ultrasound: 8/20!!!!!! TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!  Genetics says BOTH BOYS!!!!!!!!!
    Second Ultrasound: 9/03!!!!!!!!!!










     










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  • 74dragonfly74dragonfly member
    Welcome. I hope your stay is short. This is a great place to share feelings. I understand your comment that other boards don't seem as good a fit if you have a child. I am sorry for your loss.




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  • ceebeeteeceebeetee member
    welcome and sort for your loss.  Hope you get some answers about your situation! 
    TTC baby #2 since July 2011, DX: low AMH
    BFP 1/21/13, blighted ovum m/c 2/12/13
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  • ceebeeteeceebeetee member
    welcome and sorry for your loss.  Hope you get some answers about your situation! 
    TTC baby #2 since July 2011, DX: low AMH
    BFP 1/21/13, blighted ovum m/c 2/12/13
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  • BuckeyegirlangieBuckeyegirlangie

    I don't post here very often, but I think I might start posting here more because of my situation too.  I just wanted to say how very sorry I am for your loss.  I can relate as I started TTC #2 when DS was 10 months old.  Since then, I've had a c/p and am getting ready to go through my second miscarriage a blighted ovum. 

     Anyway, I'm so sorry.  

    Me - 37 years old with Endo; DH - MFI (motility); TTC #2 Since August 2011; IUI #1 December 2011 BFN; IUI #2 February 2012 Canceled due to MFI; tried naturally BFN; IUI #3 April 2012 BFP on 11 dpIUI, Beta on 12dpIUI 9.5, 14dpIUI 8 - Ended in chemical; On break while DH is on Clomid. IUI #4 September 2012 BFP on 10dpIUI; m/c Blighted Ovum TTC #1 January 2009 - March 2010; IUI + Injects - BFP! Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker
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  • NJMom050911NJMom050911 member
    imageBuckeyegirlangie:

    I don't post here very often, but I think I might start posting here more because of my situation too.  I just wanted to say how very sorry I am for your loss.  I can relate as I started TTC #2 when DS was 10 months old.  Since then, I've had a c/p and am getting ready to go through my second miscarriage a blighted ovum. 

     Anyway, I'm so sorry.  

    I'm so sorry for your losses. Being that we got lucky with DS #1 (got pregnant on 4th cycle trying, on our honeymoon) I never thought I would find myself not only on a loss board, but losing not one but two babies and struggling with fertility after my loss. It's like being kicked while you're down. I hope I see you posting here more often and that you get your sticky baby soon. Hugs.

    Logan Alexander born May 9th 2011. He has stolen my heart forever. Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker BFP #2 05/24/12 EDD 01/31/13 D&C 06/26/12 Missing you. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Diagnosed with Ashermans 11/06/12 Surgery 01/18/13, Cleared for TTC 03/01/13 BFP 03/26/13 IT'S A BOY! Please Be Our Rainbow! BabyFruit Ticker
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  • ChiTown BridgetChiTown Bridget member
    Welcome and I am so sorry for your losses. ((Hugs))
    After many years and tears our baby boy is finally here
    Born 11-6-10

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  • MamaToLucaMamaToLuca member
    Welcome to the board and so sorry that you have to be here as well. I'm sorry for your loss. I'm from northern nj too! 
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  • buskey2011buskey2011 member
    Sorry for your loss. this is the right board and i hope your journey is short and sweet. I went through missing af and I too had the blood test and alll was normal as well and fertility has been started. GL
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  • KristyLynn26KristyLynn26 member
    I'm so sorry for your loss. Welcome to the board and I hope your stay is short and sweet. GL!
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    First Time: DD born 3/2011 after trying for two years, LAP, and two IUIs w/ Femera + Ovidrel
    This Time: 4/12 Femera IUI #1 BFN, 5/12 Femera + TI BFN, 6/12 Femera + IUI #2 BFN, 7/12 Femera + IUI #3 BFN, 8/12 Follistim IUI #4 BFN
    IVF #1: ER 11/5/12 : 17 eggs retrieved/6 fertilized, ET 11/10/12 : 5dt of 2 embies/0 frosties BFN
    IVF #2: ER 1/28/13 : 12 eggs retrieved/9 fertilized, ET 2/2/13 : 5dt of 2 embies/0 frosties BFN
    IVF #3: ER 4/15/13 : 13 eggs retrieved/7 fertilized, ET 4/18/13 : 3dt of 3 embies/0 frosties BFN
    Laparoscopy 5/24/13 : Stage 2 Endo, Scaring, and Both tubes Blocked but successfully Opened
    IVF #4 (Clinical Trial): ER 7/22/13 : 15 eggs/8 fertilized, ET 7/25/13 : 3dt of 3 embies/0 frosties BFN
    IVF #5: ER 11/4/13 : 13 eggs/12 fertilized, ET 11/9/13 : 5dt of 2 embies/0 frosties BFP!!! Beta 11/20/13 = 447 1 Beautiful Baby! EDD: July 28, 2014
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  • NJMom050911NJMom050911 member

    imageMamaToLuca:
    Welcome to the board and so sorry that you have to be here as well. I'm sorry for your loss. I'm from northern nj too! 

    What county?

    Logan Alexander born May 9th 2011. He has stolen my heart forever. Baby Birthday Ticker Ticker BFP #2 05/24/12 EDD 01/31/13 D&C 06/26/12 Missing you. Lilypie Angel and Memorial tickers Diagnosed with Ashermans 11/06/12 Surgery 01/18/13, Cleared for TTC 03/01/13 BFP 03/26/13 IT'S A BOY! Please Be Our Rainbow! BabyFruit Ticker
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  • MamaToLucaMamaToLuca member
    I grew up in Bergen County Waldwick to be exact and now live in Passaic county North Haledon how about you?
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