I feel as though a weight has been lifted.

Mrs Nice

I won't lie. Writing Ian's birth story was very painful. It brought back so many difficult feelings that I thought I had let go of. There were many times that I had to stop typing because I couldn't see through my tears. It took me a few days to complete, and I kept on remembering things to add that I had forgotten. Then to actually post it and share it with all of you was a decision that I struggled with. Yesterday was a very hard day filled with so many painful memories. I felt raw. Naked. Exposed. Exhausted.

Then, this morning I woke up feeling like a huge weight had been lifted. I feel good about sharing his story and I hope it has helped some of you. I feel now that I can appreciate the time that I had with Ian, and the memories don't make me have a nervous flutter in my stomach like before. I feel like I can breath again.

I think that this was one of the biggest steps I have taken so far. I would highly recommend for all loss moms to write their angels stories. Not necessarily share it if you are not ready, but even just to write it was a huge relief.  

mcarter127

Thank you for posting your thoughts on this. I find it healing to talk about Eli's birth story and have written it out for a support group. My birth was very traumatic medically as well as emotionally and Im having a very difficult time dealing with all the anxiety surrounding that.
I do find it somehow comforting to read others birth stories as well, maybe it makes me feel less alone. Women naturally want to talk about their child's birth, it's no different for us. For me those few hrs are all the memories I have of my son so it's been hard to not be able to really talk about it.

fluttergirlmoonchild79

Thank you for sharing this.  When DH went back to work, to help time pass I sat down and wrote our story.  There was one day I spent over 8 hours just typing away.  I got all the way up to the day he became and angel and couldn't bring myself to finish.  I haven't touched it since January either because I couldn't bring myself to finish or simply didn't have the time I needed to devote to it.  You've given me the motivation to want to finish mine and for that I thank you!  {{HUGS}}

karebear57

Thank you for sharing Ian's birth story with us. I made a blog and wrote Brianna's story and it was so helpful, even though I haven't shared it yet.

jbranden12

I'm so glad you could feel this release. I also write our Patricia's birth story and I am so glad I did.

tuscanbride2007

Thank you for sharing your story! I started to write down Annabelle's birth story about 6 weeks out and still haven't finished it. I shared it "publicly" (small group of loss mamas) on Monday and it felt so good to share it. It was the first time I actually told the whole thing. It was very liberating.

OSUWifey09

Thank you for sharing your story - I'm so glad it helped lift a weight off your shoulders. I wrote my story in my journal right after the loss but haven't been able to bring myself to share it on my blog. I've told it twice and have cried each time, and the thought of sharing it publicly still makes me nauseous. But, you sharing has made me consider sharing it on my blog now.

Gabgaps

Thank you for sharing. every time one of us feels stronger it gives hope to the ones that need it. I'm sorry Ian is not with you and you have to find yourself here but I'm glad it's helping. Congrats on the big step. I think we should get a medal for every milestone! They get one when they run marathons and this is much harder!

GavinRonansMom

Thank you for sharing.your story. I haven't written down Noah's story....but I have written in a small journal we bought for him. I find it helps a little. No matter what I feel like all i think about is him....