Feeling guilty

cmenasco

Yesterday was our EDD and I feel guilty that I didn't do anything.  I am going to light a candle tonight for the wave of light, but still feel like I should have been doing more.  I'm also feeling guilty about being so petty to be worried about the extra weight that I have gained and have not lost yet from my loss.  I gained 20 lbs and have not lost any of it and now being pregnant again, I am going to gain even more.  But that is such a petty thing to be worried about I know!  But doesn't help with my self conscious.  I made my fist OB appointment today and it still doesn't feel real....I think Im too scared to get excited.  OK, sorry, just ranting....so many emotions going around the last couple days, i don't know what to do with them all!!!!

katigox

First of all, I am so sorry for you loss!  But I think whatever you do is right for you - because everyone deals with something like this differently.  So I don't think you should feel guilty because you are doing exactly what you need to be doing, for yourself, and your emotions.  Nothing more, nothing less ~

And hey, this thread is great for ranting - so rant away!  Being a PGAL is horrendous, and we need all the emotional support we can get!  Good luck with this pregnancy, and wishing you a H&H nine months, and sending some sticky dust your way as well

jbranden12

I understand. We didn't do anything special for Patricia's 6 month birthday and I felt a little guilty about it. But I know that it is impossible to forget her, so I try to be gentle with myself and realize that I do what I can when I feel I can.((hugs))