I hate that it has been almost a year since my Andrew was in my belly. I hate that you all understand the pain I am feeling. I posted something on my fb page about pregnancy and infant loss awareness day and someone who I haven't spoken to in over 15 years thanked me for allowing him to remember his son who was born too soon in 2005. Another friend posted a "mommy of an angel" badge on her fb page. I didn't know about either of their losses. It is bittersweet, but my post is allowing other loss parents to break the silence. That makes my heart sing.
Re: My heart is hurting, yet smiling
The day the Bump died - Jasper is wise
You know, since sharing about my loss on FB and blogging about it, I've had three friends tell me that they also had 3rd trimester losses. It made me feel so good to know that I'm not alone, that there are others out there that want to share - they just needed my big mouth to open and tell the whole world about Devon. :P
Some friends are lighting candles in memory of Devon tonight, along with other angel babies they know. Before this, I never knew anyone with losses like mine. Now, I'm getting to know you all and have had friends open up to me about what they've went through, and that brings me comfort.
I had a similar experience as a result of participating in the Capture Your Grief project... that I've been sharing on Facebook. A former co-worker of mine shared that she had several pregnancy losses and several other people that I know have also come forward to talk about thier loss.
While it does suck that we have to be going through such a difficult time it offers a little consolation that I can shed light on a topic that has been ignored for such a long time. Many women have had to suffer through their grief in silence because they didnt know that they had support. I'm glad that I have found you ladies and this board and that even though I still hurt and even though somedays it seems impossible I know that I can make it to tomorrow. And hopefully I can help someone else along the way.
In memory of Corbin Scott 10/28/11-12/3/11. Heaven got another angel the night you left this world behind Heaven got a little better the day it took you away from me Missing you tonight, see you again sometime For now I'll close my eyes and dream of heaven tonight I'll love you forever I'll like you for always Now and Forever My baby you'll be
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