Loss milestone today...22 weeks 3 days

nuttycoconut

Thank goodness this day is almost over. I've been a wreck since last night. 22 weeks 2 days is when I checked into L & D last time. Of course DH is at a bachelor party so I keep thinking what if it happens again and he's out of state? 

I had a very good appointment (fetal echo scan) with my MFM yesterday. They also checked my cervix which hasn't budged one bit with my transabdominal cerclage. That has definitely eased my anxiety but its still bittersweet to know that my (hopefully) rainbow babies will forever be older than my angel babies. It's just really hard to process. Also, it's weird that I know exactly what babies look like at 22 weeks 3 days.  

From here on out it's unchartered territory. 

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I can only imagine how rough today is for you! ((huge hugs)).

GaiaEarthMom12

Thinking of you *hugs*

crystal8503

I am so terribly sorry for your loss. I couldn't imagine. I am glad to hear your last appointment went well and wish for nothing but the same news for the duration of your pregnancy. Big hugs to you.

Allycat11

((huge hugs)) I can't even imagine how difficult this must be for you. 

Gregermis

Congrats on making it past your milestone. TPs for all your babies, angel and rainbow

weddedwife

Our loss milestones are nearly identical, mine was at 22 weeks 4 days. I'm sorry you had a rough day but how relieving to get good news! I think you know I ended up in the hospital on my loss milestone?

Afterwards I felt exactly how you are describing: the sadness of knowing what a baby of that gestation looks like, the feeling of uncharted territory, etc. It all felt very surreal.

Now that my cerclage has been holding steady for weeks now I feel much better, and I hope that for you too. I know stuff can still happen but now I can take comfort in knowing that whatever does happen, at least it will be a different path than last time.

Sending you big, huge hugs today.

pinktrojanbride120107

Big hugs to you on this difficult day.  I hope the rest of your pregnancy is comfortable and worry-free.

Ktrue85

I am so sorry you had to deal with that stress alone today with YH out of town.  These types of milestones are so hard to face, but I'm sure you did your very best today.  Also, congrats on a great appointment.  Big ((hugs))!!

SpinnerGirl

Hang in there!  Keeping you in my T&Ps!

delino

Big (((hugs)))

I wish this journey wasn't so scary.

orangegoggles

(((Big Hugs))) Thinking of you and all of your babies.

ehlersm

So glad you made it through! Great news about your appt. on Friday!

jbranden12

((hugs)). Congrats, you made it!

nuttycoconut

weddedwife:

Our loss milestones are nearly identical, mine was at 22 weeks 4 days. I'm sorry you had a rough day but how relieving to get good news! I think you know I ended up in the hospital on my loss milestone? Afterwards I felt exactly how you are describing: the sadness of knowing what a baby of that gestation looks like, the feeling of uncharted territory, etc. It all felt very surreal. Now that my cerclage has been holding steady for weeks now I feel much better, and I hope that for you too. I know stuff can still happen but now I can take comfort in knowing that whatever does happen, at least it will be a different path than last time. Sending you big, huge hugs today.

 

I do remember very well it happened to you on your milestone, especially since we are only a day apart. I was actually going to pm you to say that your experience helped me get through the day and (I know this is odd but...) thank you for being so open about it all.

I was devastated for you when you had to go through such a scary time again right around your milestone. I kept thinking about how you made it through that, then to 24 weeks and now past 28 weeks so I should be able to as well.  I know life can be cruel to us loss moms more than once but most of the time it isn't.

Carolee

Big (((HUGS)))

nuttycoconut

Thank you so much ladies.

philfemgal

So glad you have passed your milestone and everything is looking good with this pregnancy.  I can't imagine how the milestone day wouldn't be difficult, but glad you are now past it and still going strong!

benoitfan

I'm so sorry, milestones are so hard.  I can't imagine how hard it was for you to make it this far, with all the contant worry.  I hope and pray that it is smooth sailing from here on out and that you are holding you happy, healthy bundlie in another 12 weeks or so.  ((HUGS))

HoolahZinger

Big hugs! 

littlepenguin2012

Big, big ((hugs)) !