Complete meltdown in Hobby Lobby

JonesBaby0624

I was in hobby lobby, in line behind a woman with a stroller (I would usually go to another line but it was the only one open).  She was obviously buying the makings for a baby girls costume.  The checker asked her how old the baby was and she said "about 2 1/2 months old, she was born on July 18th".  That was the day before I lost my baby girl, and my world went black.  I started with a panic attack, started crying, threw my stuff and left.  I have never gotten that upset and it scared me.  Is this ever going to end?  Am I every going to be able to see another baby girl again?

sloannmark

Hugs to you. I still have breakdowns. I saw the name Zachary and cried in my office. I don't know if that ever goes away but I hope the moments become fewer and fewer. I do want to be able to see other children without being sad or resentful.

buggirl72

{{hugs}} I understand. Any trip to the store involves completely avoiding pregnant women and small babies. I also had a complete breakdown in Target. I decided I wanted to get a card for Zachary to put with the memory box the hospital gave us. As I was trying to find the perfect blank card I accidentally went down the aisle that had birth announcements. 

karebear57

((Big hugs)) I am so sorry! It was really hard at first for me too. I remember going to Buffalo Wild Wings, my first real outing, a few months after I had Brianna and I swear it must have been daughter day. Babies, little girls all over the restaurant. I had to go run in the bathroom to cry. It still hits me like that sometimes, but less than at the beginning. It does get better though after some time. ((hugs))

Williamandshawnna

I am so sorry. -HUGS-

 

BronwynJaede

It does get better.  I had a meltdown in CVS a couple of weeks ago, but I've come a long way from when I was having multiple meltdowns every day.  ((Hugs)) to you - be gentle with yourself.

a&aw12707

Huge squishy hugs to you.

OSUWifey09

I sent you an email, but hoping better days are ahead. Lots of hugs.

jlcrhw

I am so sorry you had a hard day. Some things hit me really hard too. I never know how I am going to react to things. My emotions are so unpredictable now. I would have had a really hard time with that also my Isabella was born sleeping on July 18th.

((((Super Jumbo Hugs))))

weddedwife

Yes it does get better. In the first few months going out in public was agonizing. It didn't matter where. Babies and pregnant women were everywhere. I tried hard to avoid meeting people's eyes and getting involved in small talk.

Sometimes it still strikes me weird like that, but it's not as often and not as traumatic. I can usually hold off til I get to my car or something and cry there.

Big hugs to you; we've all been there.

Bayberry12

It really is so hard to try to go out and act normal, and then all of the sudden something will set you off.  But you got through it.  It sucked, but you made it. 

It has gotten a little easier for me to see a baby girl in a store or on the street, although I would NEVER engage in small talk with the parent like I did when I was pregnant.  Seeing a happy little girl with her dad is really what gets me, and I think it always will. 

Like the other poster, I will also try to avoid eye contact, and that is very hard because I feel like a little insecure mouse with no self-confidence and I used to be the complete opposite.  I used to love talking to strangers, now all I think is "please, nobody talk to me"    

tracint

There's just something about Hobby Lobby that has me crying almost everytime I go in there! While I was pregnant I saw so many crafts and activites that I wanted to start for/with my baby girl. In general I've been alright in other public places, I mean every once in a while something will remind me of Edyn and I'll start tearing up, but Hobby Lobby... it's the worst:/ but like the pp said, good job on getting through it.