OMG! Not Sure How to React

KGS2003 · September 2012

I finally have something semi good to post. I think.... I am not really sure how to feel other than scared.

As I posted in the monthly updates DH and I have been thinking of moving since our DD is 9 now, we want to move before she gets to much older and what not. We live on the outskirts of a not so safe city. Since we live on the outskirts it was never a problem raising her but it could be as she gets older and goes into middle school and then high school. Our goal is to make the move some time after she turns 10 and before she hits middle school.

While discussing the move today, DH looks at me and says maybe we should try IVF again and just put DD in private school instead of moving. If we did IVF again we would have no money to move. I was shocked! I couldn't believe my ears. He hasn't wanted to talk about IVF since March or April of this year. He just wanted to try on our own and let fate take its course.

I guess he has been thinking about it for a while because he was like we can continue to try til the beginning of the year, but we should make an appointment with our RE for some time in December so we can get ready just in case we need to try IVF at the beginning of the year.

I was like whaaat??? OMG yay!!! Then the rational side of me kicked in and was like what if he changes his mind? Then I will be excited for nothing and of course all the terror of what if it doesn't work started going through my mind. Please tell me I am over thinking all of this and I should just FWP until the beginning of the year if we ever ovulate again and look forward to possibly IVF next year.

I really need to be happy about this but I forgot how to be after 7 years of hope I am not sure where to find it anymore. Some one please slap me. That is all. Now I am off to get dinner ready.

jenn0021 · September 2012

That is exciting news! But I also get that you are scared and terrified all at the same time. Hopefully your DH doesn't change his mind and that you can find a way to calm down and relax until December.

minicheezburg · September 2012

.:Does little happy dance:.

OMG!! That is awesome, I can understand your feelings but, holy poop! I know my DH surprises me at times as well. GL sweets!!

hungryhippo · September 2012

Squeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!!!!!! Mr. KGS comes through!!!!

::slides a pretty box full of hope to KGS::

You borrow this hope for as long as you need it. Maybe it will be better in your care anyways. ;

I'm so glad he opened up about this. I know that whatever you two decide will be the right decision. I'm so glad you can make these choices together instead of being on two different pages.

Squeeeeeeee!!!!!!!!

delino · September 2012

SIGGY

This is such an awesome post to wake up to this morning! I am so incredibly happy and hopeful for you. You're going to have a great holiday season with the hope and anticipation of a cycle in the near future. SQUEEEE!!!!

raashton · September 2012

That is exciting!

As for the worry that he will change his mind, try not to let it over take you and ruin this moment. I would imagine if it is something that you've been open to for so long but he wasn't until now, the idea of another IVF has been marinating for a bit before he brought it up to you.

Good luck!