prepartum depression?

batto

I'm 8 months pregnant and it was unplanned. In fact me and my boyfriend broke up before I got pregnant we where still fooling around for awhile. I was going to go through adoption and stuck with it up till I was about 6 months or so till my brother offered me and my son to move from MA to NC to live with him and my sister inlaw to help raise him. I was very excited but now I'm very depressed and scared I wont pull myself out of this for the sake of my baby. I'm also a cutter ever since I was 12 and have been hurting myself in the morning the last few days. I try talking to friends and family but I feel like they keep brushing me off... I haven't talked to my brother or his wife about it yet but they are so busy with getting a new place that's big enough for all of us I don't want to bother them. I'm scared that this will turn into postpartum and I want to be there for my son but I don't know if I'll be emotionally ok. I already feel like a bad mother and haven't been eating enough the last few days. I just want the feelings I have go away. I want to be thrilled about being a mom not depressed. help me

emnoahmom

I am sorry you are feeling this way, you have been through a lot. Please talk to your doctor.  I've dealt with all of the same things you are feeling since teenage years and have just recently started therapy and it's really helping. I also took ant-depressants during some of my pregnancies and it really helped.

batto

I'm seeing my doc on Monday and even told my boss at work so if I have anxiety at work I can take a break with out problems. I'm scared to take meds for it though, only because when I was a teen my psychiatrist basically sedated me. I end up being on 6 different kinds of medications including around 600 mgs of depakot. I was a zombie and it turns out they did it cause not only am I bipolar but also have borederline personality disorder which they did not tell me cause many therapist and psychiatrist don't know how to handle people like me so they just give us a lot of drugs to keep us from having an episode which is dangerous cause that means if they did what I did and just stop taking them it makes things so much worse. I been able to cope but do to things in my recent past it shook up a lot of my issues back to the surface. But I'm willing to try a low does med if it will help me from keeping my episodes away from my baby