***PgAL Check-In***

Mrs Nice

Hello Ladies,Welcome to Thursday PGAL Check-In! I hope I find you all well and positive this week! If you have any questions you would like answered, please don't be shy! You can also ask the PAL ladies. Bake, little buns, bake! How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?QOTW: Do you feel like you are having a hard time bonding with your rainbow baby(s)?Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?GTKY: What is your favourite way to relax?

Heatherhah

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week? 26wk 5 days , lettuce

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? nope

QOTW: Do you feel like you are having a hard time bonding with your rainbow baby(s)? I dont want to say yes because I love her so much and want her more than anything in this world but I think sometimes I do have a hard time bonding. I guess I just can't believe she will come home with us. I want to believe she will so badly but the truth is I worry every moment that something will happen to her too.

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Just more of the same old same old. DD1 is sick so that is tough too.

GTKY: What is your favourite way to relax? staying home with my hubby and kids watching tv and just being together.

jbranden12

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?Coming up on 10 weeks, should be a prune by Saturday. 
Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?Next appointment/sono is a week from today. It is also DH's birthday, which will mark one year since we found out we were expecting Patricia. I am really hoping it will be a good day.
QOTW: Do you feel like you are having a hard time bonding with your rainbow baby(s)?Yes, but it is still early. I don't expect to lose this baby, but I also don't expect to take this baby home. Just focusing on today. 
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?Even though I have lost weight, I'm really starting to show. Yesterday I got my first "Is this your first baby?" I said no, and she didn't ask more. Even with strangers, I do not think I will ever answer "Yes." Not because I feel I would be betraying Patricia, but because if they're going to ask, I'm going to spread awareness. I plan on answering "No, we had a daughter in March but she passed away a few days before she was born."
Also, (TMI warning) I have a yeast infection for the first time ever. I've had more difficulty physically with this pregnancy than Patricia's, and I'm irritated because I know I'm going to have enough trouble enjoying this pregnancy without all these things that I somehow avoided last time. Grr.
 GTKY: What is your favourite way to relax?A cup of tea and a day of Netflix with DH.

Petunia844

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?  I am 35 weeks 3 days, I think I'm still a honeydew.
Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? No milestones... but our induction date is coming up, 15 days left!
QOTW: Do you feel like you are having a hard time bonding with your rainbow baby(s)? Not anymore... I'm head over heals for him and I just can't wait to hold him and look into his eyes.  Of course I get scared, but I just push it aside, I just cannot entertain those awful thoughts. 
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  Baby boy's eviction date, I can't stop counting days.. it's making time slow down! 
GTKY: What is your favourite way to relax? Other than just generally spending time with DH... cooking relaxes me, so does painting... with pandora on just going to another place.

ehlersm

 How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?    7 weeks so I think I am a blueberry.Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?    I have my first u/s next Tuesday. I am trying to put it out of my mind, but I am pretty nervous.
Do you feel like you are having a hard time bonding with your rainbow baby(s)? It's a little early for me on this one. Once we see the hearr beat that may change. I am certainly thinking if this one comes home where last time it was always when.
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?  I am anxious to find out if there is one baby in there or two. Last time we were shocked to find out I was having twins since I have no family history and was not using any fertility meds. I would love the opportunity for twins again, but terrified that my body won't be able to handle it. 
GTKY: What is your favorite way to relax?      On the couch with the remote in my hand!

astraight15

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?6 weeks & baby is the size of a sweet pea. Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?My first apt is on Tuesday and I am really anxious!! QOTW: Do you feel like you are having a hard time bonding with your rainbow baby(s)?I am having a hard time believing that this is real.  I think that it may change once we have our first ultrasound.   Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?I am scared to death about this pregnancy & can't push the thought that something could go wrong with this pregnancy too.   GTKY: What is your favourite way to relax?Snuggling with my dog & a blanket, watching mindless tv! 

julesverne

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week? 10w3d, I think it's prune.

Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? We have our NT scan in 2 weeks. And I am so nervous about it.

QOTW: Do you feel like you are having a hard time bonding with your rainbow baby(s)? With DD, the bond was instant. But with this baby, I am having a hard time getting excited. This maybe be weird logic, but I figured DD would be born healthy and we would bring her home because the universe wouldn't be that cruel to let me lose 2 kids in a row. But with this one, I am not completely convinced that everything will be 100% because the universe (or god, whatever) might figure "she already has 1 healthy baby, it won't be a big deal if something goes wrong with this baby"

Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? See PAL, but DD got into the preschool we were hoping she would get into, but she needs to be PT, and we still have a ways to go.

GTKY: What is your favourite way to relax? Ok, I know kids really shouldn't watch that much TV, but right now I love to snuggle on the couch with DD on Saturday mornings to watch TV. Granted, we end watching the same episode of Sesame Street over and over, but I love it

careyalis

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week? I am 15 weeks 5 days and I think I am an orange...or maybe an avocado? Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones? I just had an ultrasound on Wednesday and the baby seems to be doing well.  I have had the stomach flu and was throwing up/fever for 4 straight days so I was really worried about the little guy.  Everything looks great though and the bones appear to be long and straight.  I have my A/S coming up on October 10th and that is when we discovered Avery's condition.  That is kind of looming over my head, but the ultrasound on Wednesday was reassuring that things are still looking good. QOTW: Do you feel like you are having a hard time bonding with your rainbow baby(s)? I did.  I felt much more connected to Avery at this point in her pregnancy than I do with the new baby.  Strangely enough, getting sick seemed to bring me closer.  I was so worried about the baby being affected that it really made it feel real for me. Open Topic. What is on your mind this week? Legs were crossed at the ultrasound, but the tech *thinks* she saw boy parts, so we are pretty sure that we are having a boy.  I was hoping for another little girl, but seeing that healthy baby on the ultrasound brought me to tears.  I already love *most likely* him so much and I know that he will be perfect for our family.  I came to the realization that another girl is not going to be Avery.  No baby will take her place, so it doesn't matter if a boy or girl is next in line.  My longing for another girl was really just my longing for her to come back.  Sorry if that is rambly, but I have been thinking about it a lot lately and came to peace with a lot of things. GTKY: What is your favourite way to relax? I love massages.  I would get one every day if I could afford it!

philfemgal

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week?13 weeks tomorrow--a plum becoming a peach.
Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?We have an appointment on Tuesday which I think is also the official beginning of the 2nd trimester.  We are also approaching the point at which one of our twins died during the last pregnancy (we found out at 14.5 weeks but it seems as though it happened at least a few days before.)  The problem was a defect in how the baby's bladder formed, and 14 weeks appears to be the latest that that sort of defect could show up and cause a fetal death.  So I am of course feeling nervous about getting past that time with this baby.
QOTW: Do you feel like you are having a hard time bonding with your rainbow baby(s)?Yes and no.  I actually had some degree of trouble bonding last time (especially after losing the first twin).  Now I definitely have troubling believing this could possibly work out.  But then on the other hand, we had a scare a week and a half ago and I really thought I was going to have a miscarriage and I realized how awful it felt and that I am attached to this baby.
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?Just that we are now entering the 2nd trimester and approaching the time that everything went so badly last time. 
GTKY: What is your favourite way to relax?I am usually a stress eater and we usually like to do a lot of eating out.  It's really a lot less fun though while pregnant.  Eating seems to feel more like a chore 80%+ of the time rather than something really enjoyable because of my queasiness and food aversions.  I am hoping to get to experience the 2nd trimester crazy hunger and cravings this time around.

weddedwife

How far along are you? What size fruit is your baby this week? I'm 26 weeks 4 days. Baby is a cabbage.
Do you have any upcoming appointments or milestones?Weekly appt. Thursday. I hit 3rd tri on Friday.
QOTW: Do you feel like you are having a hard time bonding with your rainbow baby(s)?This is gonna sound odd, but I never really felt like I bonded with any of my babies while pg. I think it has something to do with being team green. Up until the day my daughter was born, she was just kind of an abstract- I had no real way of knowing what motherhood was like. Even though I know now, I still feel somewhat detached from this baby- I just don't know him or her yet!That said, it did not affect my devastation after my loss. The love you feel for your baby is instant and forever after you see your baby for the first time. I'm not worried about bonding with this baby once he/she arrives. I just can't get there beforehand, if that makes any sense. I know I'm probably in the minority.
Open Topic. What is on your mind this week?I hope I'm not getting too comfortable. Everything has been going very well since my emergency cerclage. I'm afraid of feeling too positive.
GTKY: What is your favourite way to relax?I would love to visit my chiro and get a massage! But I'm on strict bed rest She will make a house call but I've been too paranoid to mess w/ success. Maybe after 28 weeks... But she has this fabulous chair in office that I won't get to take advantage of if she comes to my house. It would still probably feel really good though!