Is it just me?

reb259

I am starting to feel like that kid who is never picked for kick ball...  I am glad we have gotten some good new recently on this board and I am so happy for those BFP's, but it is making me feel more and more like the girl never asked to dance.

H and I saw T.imothy Gre.en this weekend... we were both crying, but it in the end enjoyed it.  Somehow I feel like it helped to validate his feelings if that makes sense.  Also thought it was interesting that Ahmet Zappa wrote the story.  He wrote it while he was married to S.elma Bl.air.  I think they are now divorced and she has a baby, I wonder if IF played a part in thier marriage.  I feel like it had to as it connected with me as only another person suffering with IF with write it.  I couldnt imagine a fertile being able to write that story...but maybe, who knows.

Sorry just rambling...hope everyone had a nice weekend!

 

naybird

Oh R, I hate that you are going through this and feeling this way. Huge hugs. I'm always rooting for you and hope things will get better.

mtlaurel

Big hugs. It's not just you. It's weird how I can feel so genuinely happy for someone to get their BFP - not just for the individual, but also for the sense that there is some small amount of justice left in the world -  and still feel like it's a personal affront in a way....

glueck

mtlaurel:

Big hugs. It's not just you. It's weird how I can feel so genuinely happy for someone to get their BFP - not just for the individual, but also for the sense that there is some small amount of justice left in the world -  and still feel like it's a personal affront in a way....

I totally get that. I havent seen the film. Not sure if I have the courage to. 

Mrs.McIrish

It is so hard to not ask the question "why not me".. 

 I was watching my niece yesterday and she had a meltdown bc her dolly didn't have a change of clothes. She said "auntie, why don't you have any baby clothes"..  I wanted to cry with her "I want baby clothes too but someone won't let me"... 

LaLe09

((HUGS))

NMscubagirl

((hugs)) it's not just you sweetie. I hate so much that you are going through this. I hate so much that any of us have to go through this. 

Roxie5739

NMscubagirl:

((hugs)) it's not just you sweetie. I hate so much that you are going through this. I hate so much that any of us have to go through this. 

Exactly this. IF is just cruel and no one should ever have to deal with the grief that goes along with it, such a harsh grief, a silent grief.

rockpaperlove

Don't apologize. You're not rambling one bit. What you're saying is completely understandable. Thinking of you and sending happy Tuesday vibes your way. Fx crossed tomorrow is a little brighter than today. Big hugs.

BeeBee08

I definitely feel the same way.  And with how quiet this board is now, it kind of feels like we're the last stragglers. 

"Why not me?" is the question of my life...I know it's not healthy, but it's true.

MBfromBMC

(((huge hugs)))

reb259

BeeBee08:

I definitely feel the same way.  And with how quiet this board is now, it kind of feels like we're the last stragglers. 

"Why not me?" is the question of my life...I know it's not healthy, but it's true.

This exactly... hugs to you too!!

Jlynn3

mtlaurel:

Big hugs. It's not just you. It's weird how I can feel so genuinely happy for someone to get their BFP - not just for the individual, but also for the sense that there is some small amount of justice left in the world -  and still feel like it's a personal affront in a way....

Very well said.

(((hugs)))

orange1414

((Hugs)) I know the feeling We've been trying to start out family for three and a half years. Now, with waiting to be picked by a birth mother, it's an even more literal version of the experience.