Thinking ppd is coming back again

AngelMell05

Ugh . Hi ladies. So I had ppd with my son but I did not even realize it until I was in a terrible place 10 months after having him. I was just so sad that I could not do anything but care for my son. Anyways I went in Zoloft and got better and felt totally like myself. I went off the meds and had my daughter no problem . Now three months after having her I am feeling those feelings of guilt coming back. Like everything I do is wrong. I feel bad for stupid things like putting my daughter down to make dinner or for not reading enough books to my son at bedtime . I am just beating myself up over all these little things. I am by no means feeling as bad as I did with my son but I am so worried I will head back to that place without realizing it again. I have an ob appt in a month and I am thinking I will talk to my doc then about possibly going back on Zoloft but I am ebf my daughter and I am just so afraid to take the meds and feed her. With my son at least he was weaning so I didn't worry as much about taking the medicine. I just know that i want to be the best mom I can be and If I end up sad and crying all the time I won't be able to care for my babies the way they should be cared for. Just wanted to share and get some input . Thanks ladies

emnoahmom

Seems like you have a good plan starting with talking to your doctor. I took zoloft and bf as well. I was hesitant, but after talking with my own doctor and ultimately realizing I wanted to be a happy mom for my kids, it was the right decision for me. Good luck to you. I wish it was easy for all us ladies to just feel "good" without the help.