I am at week 36, and I am nervous about a LOT! I have heard a few stories about the epidural, like 1) not being able to feel what's going on and the doctors having to pretty much push for you. 2) the drug not kicking in until you've pretty much already had teh baby. 3) spinal leakage. I want to try and do a natural birth (this is my first), but I am so nervous, because no matter how much I read up on it, I will never truly know what it's gonna be like until I experience it myself. I am pretty small, and don't want to rip. But when they cut me, since I want to do a natural birth, how bad am I gonna feel them cutting me? It's so sensitive, anyway, as it is! I know I'll probably just be focused mainly on having the baby and getting her outta there, but I would like some suggestions on medditation, or the way I should go about this. I also have been thinking about doing water birth, because I think that would help relax me a whole lot more, but I don't know if I'd be able to hold myself upright in a tub while giving birth.
I wish she would just be here already :P Feedback would be nice(: