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One of those hard IF days

Keephope2012Keephope2012 member
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So today I am just having one of those hard IF days. Temp dropped again so AF should be here in the next few days which means IUI 2 failed. Then at work one of my pregnant coworker asked me the dreaded question "when are you going to have kids?" It's moments like this when I wish I was snarky enough to just say "I'm actually dealing with infertility and had another treatment fail so thanks for asking!" And on top of that I have a birthday looming which just somehow makes me think even more about the baby I thought I would have by now... Just one of those days you know? What do you do when you have a bad IF day? 
Me:30 low AMH; DH:30 MFI (count, motility, morphology)
2 rounds clomid 100 mg -BFN
IUI#1- 25 mg clomid- July 2012= BFN!
IUI #2 August = BFN!
IUI #3 September = BFN!

IVF #1 November - converted to IUI #4 due to poor response = BFN
IVF #1.2 February- converted to IUI #5 due to poor response = BFN
IVF #1.3 April- micro dose Lupron flare with HGH; 14R, 13M, 11F! Transfer of 1 day 5 blast on 4/30, 4 frosties. BFP! Beta #1 9dp5dt= 179; Beta #2 11dp5dt= 442; Beta #3 4106 Stick baby stick!!

*trying to keep hope*




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    jenn0620jenn0620 member
    I'm sorry you are having a bad IF day, I had one yesterday. Usually I eat chocolate to make myself feel better!
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    DX: Infertile 6/11 Me: LPD, all other blood work clear.
    DH: low sperm motility,low count.
    Met with RE start clomid + TI + IUI 5/12= IUI cancelled due to positive Cystic Fibrosis carrier test. DH tested Neg. for Cystic Fibrosis,

    6/12 Clomid + TI +IUI=BFN 8/10 IVF consult.
    IVF #1 Started BCP 9/2 Lupron 10/11 stims 10/27 ER 11/6!! 5 eggs retreived only 1 mature. FERT report shows none made it.Cancelled cycle.

    IVF #2 BCP 11/18 Lupron 12/14

    Stims start 12/29 ER 1/8 ET 1/11 put in 1 grade B and 1 grade C. Beta: 1/20 = BFN

    IVF# 3 7/13 BFP ended in chemical pregnancy

    9/15 diagnosed with PCOS and insulin resistance gearing up for IVF# 4 Dec/ Jan

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    JaeMaeJaeMae
    I am sorry about your IUI. This whole journey sucks. I hope tomorrow is better for you. I drink a lot of wine on bad IF days. (((hugs)))
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    NBA0703NBA0703 member
    I am soo sorry you are having a bad IF day : ( ... I had one of those yesterday and some of today : ( .. Hope it gets better
    BabyFetus Ticker


    TTC SINCE 7/2010, BFP-10/2010 ended in miscarriage 11/2010 : (.....
    Progesterone level 4/2011= 11.29. SA normal. HSG normal.
    8/11 Clomid 50mg=BFN progesterone level 35,
    10/11 Clomid 50mg =BFN progesterone level 31,
    11/11 Clomid 50mg=BFN progesterone level 12,
    12/11 Clomid 50mg=Progesterone 31
    01/12-Break from meds-BFN
    Feb-cd3 blood work FSH(5), AMH(0.56) 02/12 Break....
    03/01/12-Clomid 50mg with IUI #1=BFN.
    04/01/12-Another round of clomid with IUI#2=BFN.
    5/8/12-Diagnostic Laparoscopy-found minimal endometriosis and small fibriod.
    June and July-much needed break
    August-Bravelle 75 with IUI#3- BFN
    September-Bravelle injects with IUI #4-BFP!! MC 10/7/12 : ( Sonohysterogram-Normal
    December- Bravelle(3 good follicles & E2 1252) with IUI#5 BFFN :*(
    July IVF #1- BFP! : )  Beta #1-245, #2- 703, #3- 1655, #4- 3553 YAY!  Praying and Praying this one sticks around!
                      1st U/S scheduled for Aug 23rd!  
    Twins!!
    We are having a BOY & a GIRL !!



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    sundowner85sundowner85 member
    I'm sorry you're having a bad day. I had a couple of really dark days last week, and I'm feeling better now. I hope you can feel more on the positive side soon.
    TTC from May 2011 to Jan 2013. Due 9/11/13
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    kristykay123kristykay123 member
    I know what ya mean. I'm sorry :(. *hugs*
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    mrsrichey11mrsrichey11 member

    I'm sorry you're having a bad IF day =[ 

    I just had a three day stretch of bad IF days last week. It was awful. I drank lots of margaritas and ate lots of Godiva chocolate. Helped a little bit! 

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    DX: PCOS and Endometriosis 
    TTC since May 2011
    HSG normal
    Hubs SA- Normal June 2012
    Aug. 2012: 50mg Clomid: No Response
    March 2013: 100mg Clomid: No Response
    July 2013: 5mg Femara+Ovidrel+TI--BFN
    August 2013: 10mg Femara+Ovidrel+TI--BFN
    Natural cycles Sept & Oct.--BFN
    Nov/Dec: 10mg Femara+Ovidrel+TI--BFN
    Jan 2014: 10mg Femara+Ovidrel+TI--BFN
    Feb: Benched due to cysts.
    March: Benched w/cysts.
    April: Femara+Follistim+Ovidrel+Prometrium
    BFP on Mother's Day 2014!! 
    EDD: January 20, 2015
    6week scan: TWINS!!!!!
    16w: Baby A is Stubborn, Baby B is a GIRL!
    20 week scan: TEAM PURPLE!
    The babies were born on December 16, 2014 at 35 weeks! They are home and doing well!

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    Ms H13Ms H13 member

    Ugh, hate those hard days.  Usually I deal by either bawling my eyes out or taking my frustrations out on a punching bag we have in the basement.

    And of course it had to be the pregnant co-worker that asked you the dreaded question. 

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    CutieGirlLissieCutieGirlLissie member

    imagejenn0620:
    I'm sorry you are having a bad IF day, I had one yesterday. Usually I eat chocolate to make myself feel better!

    This^ HAHAHA! 

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    AquaFlowersAquaFlowers
    Sorry you're having a bad day. *hugs* I eat chocolate like PPs have mentioned, and I usually watch cheesy movies while snuggling with our pets.
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    asilwhiteasilwhite member

    I'm sorry you're having a bad IF day *hugs.*

    When I have a bad IF day, I normally have a good cry and then watch a funny movie and eat ice cream, drink wine and cuddle with my DH and dogs.  

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    lin681lin681 member
    Sorry you're having a bad IF day. My bad IF days come and go. I usually let it out and keep on going. It's a hard journey! Stay strong.
    TTC since June 2011
    SA - Normal CD3 Bloodwork - Normal HSG- All clear!
    July 2012 50mg Clomid CD3-7 Trigger+TI = BFN
    August 2012 50mg Clomid CD3-7 Trigger+IUI = BFN
    September 2012 50mg Clomid CD3-7 Trigger+IUI = BFN
    October 4th LAP - Mild Endo - All Removed
    Treatment Break 3 cycles = BFN
    1st Treatment Cycle Post Lap --
    February 2013 50mg Clomid CD3-7 Trigger+IUI = BFN
    March 2013 50mg Clomid CD3-7 Trigger+IUI = BFN
    April 2013 Break Cycle ~~~ May 2013 Meet with RE discuss next steps
    July 2013 IVF ~ Stims start 6/28
    
ER 7/10 20R/14M/14F
    Day 3 - 10 Embryos
    ET 7/15 Transferred 1 Blast on day 5 - Froze 6
    7/24 Beta 1 150 7/26 Beta 2 313 7/30 Beta 3 1,084 Beta 4 3,000 Beta 5 8,120 1st U/S 8/8 image
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    megwill126megwill126 member
    Im sorry your having a tough day! Everything about IF sucks! When I have bad IF days I will try and keep myself busy by doing dinner, walks etc with DH, friends or family. And if that doesn't work I open a huge bottle of wine.
    Married 8/6/2011 Me (26) DH (33) SA normal,HSG clear TTC since August 2011 7/2012 50mg Clomid+Trigger+IUI+progesterone =BFN 8/2012 100mg Clomid+estrogen+Trigger+IUI+progestrone=BFN 10/2012 100mg clomid+Gonal+Lupron+Trigger+Progestrone+IUI=BFP but ectopic.
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    beth9409beth9409 member
    Sorry you had a rough day. Sometimes you just have to take the time to let it out. I usually go for a run when I am really down. It usually helps clear my head.

    TTC#1 since 5/2011
    DX: Hypothyroidism, PCOS, Myasthenia Gravis, Aplastic Anemia, one copy MTHFR DH SA: count 52% motility (slow progressive), 0% normal morph
    June-July 2012: Clomid cycles=BFNs
    August 2012: New RE, started Metformin, Letrozole 7.5mg+TI=BFN Sept. 2012: IUI#1: Letrozole 7.5mg=BFN
    Oct. 2012: IUI#2 Letrozole 7.5mg+Dexamethasone=BFN
    Nov '12-March '13 on a break
    April 2013: IUI#3 Letrozole 7.5mg+Dexamethasone=BFN
    June 2013: IVF#1  Follistim/Menopur/Ganirelix =BFN, 3 Frosties
    August 2013: FET#1=BFP 8/20/13,  EDD 4/30/13, MMC 10/1/13
    December 2013: IVF#2 Follistim/Menopur/Ganirelix=?
     ~PAIF/SAIF Welcome~

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    katiedo2011katiedo2011
    I'm sorry your having a bad day. on days like that i just accept it is a bad day and let my self be sad tomorrow will be a better day. Good luck and feel better I know how you feel. 
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