Today is 11 months:( (ticker warning)

Heatherhah

I hate this feeling of loss and sadness. I miss my baby so much. Sydney was going to be our last baby and she was so loved and wanted and to lose her so close to delivery hurts so much. I am not sure how I will handle September her angelversary is on Sept. 30th so my heart is already hurting thinking of that day and the days leading up to it.

Also being pregnant after a loss is so hard too. I thought I would be a little more at ease but I'm actually the exact opposite. I worry about this little girl inside. All the time. Being pregnant after a loss is not for the weak. For sure.

I go to counseling and my ob is fully aware of how upset I am. It is normal grieving before anyone says I should see a counselor. I go to 2 support groups and see a counselor so I have support. Plus I have so much love from my family it helps me too. I just miss my baby and her angelversary is going to be hard on me.

I don't post much here anymore I try to give some support but it is so hard to read all the new loss moms stories since I was there just 11 short months ago.

Sorry to kind of vent. I am just feeling sort of lost due to September coming up.

Hugs to the loss moms here!!

Heather

Petunia844

Big hugs for you today.

Bayberry12

Heatherhah:

Also being pregnant after a loss is so hard too. I thought I would be a little more at ease but I'm actually the exact opposite. I worry about this little girl inside. All the time. Being pregnant after a loss is not for the weak. For sure.

I can't even imagine all the emotions you are going through right now.  I obviously don't have any advice and can't really offer any comforting words, so I'm just wishing you peace.

   

Heatherhah

Thank you bayberry12 and petunia!!

dandywarhol

{{hugs}} I know how much you love and miss Sydney. Sending you strength! 

Heatherhah

Thank you dandy!!

weddedwife

I'm sorry Heather. The milestones and certain times of year really play tricks on your mind, don't they. I'm coming up on 10 months myself. I'm sure I will be very emotional at the end of October. I hope I will not always dread that time of year but I don't see how that's possible.

 Just know that we are here for you as you go through this.

Heatherhah

Thank you weddedwife!! I am so glad that you are doign better!!

karebear57

((Hugs)) I'm right behind you with the milestones. They suck! Brianna was also gonna be our last one but now...I wanna try again and I know it's going to be hard not to lose my mind during pg. I can't imagine going through all these first milestones while pg. I am so sorry you or any of us have to be here. 

Heatherhah

Thank you karebear57!!

Williamandshawnna

Heather,

I am so sorry, I don't have much advice as I am still early on in my loss. But I do wish you comfort and peace, and big HUGS.

-Shawnna

lmielocl1

hugs. I am so sorry! Thinking of you sending many peaceful vibes!

AquaFlowers

Hugs!

Heatherhah

Thank you so much ladies I know there are new loss moms please dont think that it has always been so sad for me. I mean it is sad most days but other days I think of her and smile she was so special to so many people. The loss experience is like a rollercoaster ride and it is tough sometimes.

Hugs to everyone!!

Heather

ally2011

Hugs to you, I am so sorry.  It is just an awful thing to lose a child.  The anticipation of the days coming up can sometimes be worse than the actual day, so I hope that will be the case for you.  We are all here for you as much as you need.

Hugs,

Jenn