I hate this feeling of loss and sadness. I miss my baby so much. Sydney was going to be our last baby and she was so loved and wanted and to lose her so close to delivery hurts so much. I am not sure how I will handle September her angelversary is on Sept. 30th so my heart is already hurting thinking of that day and the days leading up to it.
Also being pregnant after a loss is so hard too. I thought I would be a little more at ease but I'm actually the exact opposite. I worry about this little girl inside. All the time. Being pregnant after a loss is not for the weak. For sure.
I go to counseling and my ob is fully aware of how upset I am. It is normal grieving before anyone says I should see a counselor. I go to 2 support groups and see a counselor so I have support. Plus I have so much love from my family it helps me too. I just miss my baby and her angelversary is going to be hard on me.
I don't post much here anymore I try to give some support but it is so hard to read all the new loss moms stories since I was there just 11 short months ago.
Sorry to kind of vent. I am just feeling sort of lost due to September coming up.
Hugs to the loss moms here!!