The past week or so has gotten me thinking about a lot of things. I think it may just be that I would be having a baby if my first IVF cycle would have worked.
My husband has been talking a lot about when we have kids. For example, when we have kids we're going to do this or when we have a little boy we're going to go train watching. It's amazing to see him light up when we talk about kids. Before our IVF cycles, he never really talked about kids.
It just breaks my heart to see him get so excited, but what if we don't have kids? I love to see him light up at the prospect of our future. Maybe I'm just over-analyzing and/or being over sensitive. I just feel like a failure because I cannot give him the one thing he really wants. I want to have children with him more than anything in the world, but there is always that nagging feeling that we won't have kids.