I'm at a crossroads in life. I'm not sure where to go from here. While on maternity leave, the company I work for lost their contract. My father told me the other day, "If you aren't in a stable enough job to provide security for your kids, you need a sharp kick in the butt." My chosen career and industry is far from stable. I'm in IT and I work as a government contractor. That's about as stable as walking a tightrope during and earth quake. So, now I'm looking at options.
I can try to find a job locally that isn't contract labor. It won't pay as well, but I'm not I'm danger of losing my job every year, or going through a contract renegotiation every 3. However, as technology changes and people move toward outsourcing, I'm becoming as obsolete as the computers I support.
I can look elsewhere. I can make more money and have better stability in Dallas or Houston. There are bigger companies with room for growth beyond what I do. I have family in California and Kansas. Friends in Tulsa. A fresh clean start. But, I like being near my mom, and my daughter only has two years of school before college. Plus, he could fight the move. Although, I think going from no income to income is a significant enough change in status, that the judge would deny his request.
Or, I can take this opening and have a complete midlife crisis. Ditch my dead end career and go back to school. I'd qualify for loans and grants. Free/subsidized child care. They provide a decent stipend. I can stay with my parents. I'd only have to leave LO for a few hours each day, and could use the campus daycare. I might even qualify for family housing down the line. I also have a year of Uni credits under my belt. I'd only need 3 maybe 3.5 more. I could lessen that with CLEP testing and online courses.
I feel as though this juncture in my life is here for a purpose. I've always chosen the path that gets me what I want the fastest in life before. I hasn't always worked out for me. I've been praying for guidance and suddenly, here I am with all these options before me.
I know this:
1 I'm so sick of help desk. I hate the people. I hate the politics. I hate that people look down on me because it's entry level. I hate that I'm always the fall guy. I hate that everyone wants the Lamborghini of computers, but they only want to pay for a Hyundai. I LOVE working with computers. But, I can easily keep that a hobby.
2 I want to get away from SD. I don't want to block access to LO, but I want that space. It's been proven that MY mental well being directly affects LO's mental well being. Plus, I have no friends here anymore. Once my parents retire, THEY won't be here as often, either.
3 The best chance to make those happen is to go back to school. I can get training and knowledge in something beyond what I'm doing. I can stay in IT, or change to something completely different. It's the scariest of the options. And, the one with the most potential. I can go to seminary school... I can become a probono lawyer... I could become a librarian... A teacher... It's a new lease on life.